Dragging out the Execution N

Hello. They deferred me. I wasn’t building it up that much in my mind, but the university I applied to sent out acceptance emails for early action applicants. Like I said, I didn’t really care what my results were going to be seeing as I can’t afford it either way. This though, was probably the worst answer I probably could have gotten. The whole point of applying early was to get an answer and be done with it. Like ripping off a band-aid. Now they are just dragging out my execution. Of course my parents were mad. They think that now I have to wait longer I’m going to hold off on my decision. I’ve told them a million times that I’m just going to accept the local university. Even though I tell them this they aren’t pleased with my attitude. They want me to be fucking ecstatic that I’m going to some backwater uni and they think if they keep trying to up sell it, it will change my opinion. I won’t. The whole reason I’m accepting it though is because of money. It’s the only reason. It doesn’t matter if I’m going to be happy there or not, I know that it’s the only thing I can afford and that I have to go to college. It’s reasons like this that I don’t see any point in life. You don’t really do things because you want to, but because you have to. It makes life seem so meaningless. Also don’t start. I know that there are other options. Join the military, drop out of school, apply to a cheaper out of state school. I’ve already thought of that and those options seem just as pointless. Well thanks for listening.