I am completely losing in this game we call life. I am very much considering taking my own life. I lost my best friend, I lost my sobriety, and I have been in psychiatric hospitals over 60 times since 2010; six times since the end of November! I hate living… I am a waste of air, waste of space. I hate life completely, and my family makes it worse. I am ready to give up and die. I have attempted suicide 4 or 5 times. This time, I know it will work. I have everything I need.
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I am in the same boat as you. Yes, I am losing in life too. over the past 5 years I have barely worked and have been on a limited income. I have had serious medical problems that are painful. I have had social anxiety, depression and trauma come over me because of my past and the abusive childhood I went through. My whole life has been pain and problems on top of more problems
For the first 24 years of life… I did not know how to get along with people. I was rude and mean to people not knowing any better. I also was stupid and ignorant back then too.
I really did not start to grow up in life until I was about 24 years of age… and by then my life had deteriorated in many ways… so I had to spend the last 20 years of my life > pulling myself out of the hole that I created for myself early on.
Now you say you have been in PSYCH wards 60 times!! WOW. I have been in them about 9 times and I thought 9 was a lot.. but 60 oh my god. I thought that if a person winds up in there that many times that they will permanently commit you to a place.
YES, I feel like you. I am a waste of space. I am not a productive person. I have not contributed much to society or the world. I just basically suck up space and live a shitty life… I am a loser for sure in life and I know that for sure. I pretty much am the biggest loser I have ever met in life
My whole life is a lie. I used to think I was cool when I was in college but the truth is that I was a total joke. I was stupid, ignorant > the guys I hung around with werent even really my friends
I did some really bad things..like get into trouble and so forth.
Luckly Later in life I did wake up and learn and grow as a person and learn to be nice to people
I also have had some nice jobs and have had some really good friends and some good times.
but I am getting to the point where.. there isnt much going for me in life.. and I really dont see going on with this life much more. I have already manage to do most of the things I want to do in life anyway… and now there is only pain, and loneliness and bad memories left for me
I will never be married, I will never have kids, I will never really amount to anything in life
I have tried… but failed at turning my life around and becoming successful
I will not ever be successful unless I hit the lottery and that is not going to happen
So yeah, I plan to wrap up this life sometime within the next couple months
I am acquiring all that I need to end my life successfully and peacefully
I just want to go.. and be done with all this
There isnt much left for me in this life… and nobody really wants to help me in the way that i need help.. so I am basically living a miserable life and have no joy and not much to look forward too in life
I am going to try and get a job soon and try to make some money and do a few good things before I exit.
but I will exit. Its something I need to do.. because I am a fuckup in life and I hate myself
I pretty much wish I was never born.
Hey Riff Raff, I feel positive for you. You are someone who waned to change his life. Yet, you failed. It happened because you don’t know the laws of the universe. There is still hope for you.
I am here to tell you that there is indeed a meaning in life. One of the ways you can find out is studying near death experiences and the teachings of great spiritual seekers.
Death is not the only option and obviously is not the least painful one.
I see here a lot of despair and people thinking that the universe has no meaning and that we simply evolved out of monkeys. This is a perversion and a lie created by the dark forces of this world.