#3
Humans are social being and many people in this world might be social animals but unfortunately I’m not one of them . I socialize only when its necessary.
I no longer log into my Facebook account. I left that 3 yrs back.
I keep myself isolated from outside world as much as possible.
Today all the people around me are in a festive mood,but I can’t join in their their festive mood.
Honestly I’m jealous of other people’s happiness. Its not like that I want them to be sad,insecure or unhappy like me but I don’t know what kind of feeling is this .
I hate myself for being so selfish.
It automatically takes me to depression when I see them enjoying and doing the things that I cannot.
well its just the beginning.
Tonight is going to be even worse for me when people will start their so called ”party’ ,dancing on some stupid ,meaningless songs, screaming and shouting like hell.
These social animals will turn into wild animals .
And if that wasn’t enough the presence of my ex-bf will surely drag me to hell.
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then why go?
some of the things you mention is exactly why i don’t participate in such things,
unless you get tied and dragged and chain to a pole in the center of the festivities, there is usually always a way to avoid such things, sometimes a simple “no” is enough, and if not there are other ways, simply not move one’s legs in that direction.
and because i found socializing (even when i desired it) made me feel worse, of course i would refuse to even more, because why do something that is bound to make you worse, sometimes better to just stay home or in one’s room and get a break, catch a breath, and some mild form of peace of mind..
nothing wrong with not socializing as “much” as everybody else, you should do it on your own terms, otherwise, if it’s no fun for you, then whats the point??
no need to add further futile misery to one’s own existence, better to stay at home and read a good book or listen to a song or cry in a pillow, whatever makes one feel better, not worse..
then when you feel like it and are able you slowly start to socialize again, how and when you want, on your terms, not society’s.
when watched from a different perspective, most parties aren’t really that fun, people just do the same lame shit over and over again, each step more pointless than the last, boringly similar to the party yesterday and the day before that,
sometimes greater diversity and adventures can be found just by picking and cleaning one’s belly button, never know what weird stuff sneaked in there
Yes I understand what you are trying to say. But the problem is that the party is organized nearby my house,at my neighbour’s place. so there’s no escape. I’m not going to participate in it but its going to effect me anyway.
People here don’t give a damn about rules and regulations, especially when its festival time.
High volume music,noisy environment and all those stupid stuffs will piss me off. I’m so so frustrated but can’t do anything about this .
lock your door, sit in your room with earplugs/headphones, go to another remote place away from the party, sleep through it
hell you can even do like this angry guy i once knew, if a street party became too big too loud, he would toss large firecrackers, or whatever they are called, to signalize his limits, maybe not the best solution for all circumstances, but even if the cops were called on him the blue lights and sirens sorta puts a dampen on the party for the rest of them too..
i’m sure you can find a way, even if you cant go watch a midnight show in a cinema or such the entire time of the party.
@The Last Snorlax Thanks for your time and concern.
I know its better to avoid such things. so I’ll try to sleep with my headphones on.
i’ve spend many a night going to bed early, making sure to, take a double dose, pressing in the earplugs from work deep, so to be more certain and able to sleep through it, when/if neighbours decided to throw a party or there were celebrations outside
maybe not as fun an evening one would have hoped if rather would have watched a movie or something, but at least it could help not getting bothered by their noise for a couple of hours while it lasted + i do love to sleep, but of course preferably on my terms.