http://https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uyAc5w2VTVM
it doesnt matter where you are
it doesnt matter who you are
it doesnt matter what you are
sometimes you just need to scream at the top of your lungs because staying inside your head for one
more
goddamn
minute
would be like a snowball to stay inside of a furnace of its own free will
and you just need to to hold onto the last possible shreds of your sanity
and the last bit of your motivation
and the final shard of energy
because the only thought that drives you on is that maybe you will get better.
sometimes you just need to scream
but its less about the screaming and more about being heard
because being alone is the thing keeping you alive and killing you at the same time
because screaming is the only way to be heard and be alone.
sometimes you need to scream
not because you have something to say
but because you need to say anything.
sometimes you just need to scream
because you need others to catch a glimpse of what you feel
to see the hurt beneath the happiness
so that they can see how close you are to snapping
and becoming hollow eyed and hopeless.
sometimes you just need to scream
because its the only thing you can do.
written in a flurry of tired words at 1 am
by another casualty of a terrible childhood surrounded by terrible people.