Do you ever wonder wth your alive for?

I think that way sometime but I think if people looked on the outside how they are on the inside would world be filled with more beautiful people or more monsters? I’ve met a lot of people who look nice act nice and then after a while they become the most horrible people I’ve ever met. But then I think if someone truly saw me for what I am on the inside they’d see this dark zombie that’s emotional af cause I love and care for others with all of my being but I the hate I have for myself is so dark and bad it’s like what kinda person is that. Or if people saw each other for who they were on the inside would there be more sadness cause I know I put on a front every day I smile I act fine when on the inside I’m dead as I know so many people on here are the same way. So I guess it’s a good thing people can’t be seen for who they really are. Kinda got off the actual subject there but answer to your question, you are a rare beauty in this world don’t think less of yourself, you’re more than you can see and don’t wish to be like someone else. We will always wish that horrible things didn’t happen to us and that’s fine to wish because that’s what makes us want to end it all. But I like to think that some day i will find some sort of happiness and peace weather it be in life or death.