I was have a really hard day my depresion was taking over my and my anxiety was bad….i was going to just kill myself…normally i cut but it never went through,
neverkilled me so i was going to make sure i died this time so i looked up painful but peaceful deaths and i picked 4 i could do all in one..just to make sure i died,
I picked cutting, drinking bleach, taking pills and drowning myself,
then a link lead me to this sight and i got to reading these stories and i decided to just keep reading them more and more…i noticed everyone was covered anonymous to say!
So i decided to register,
i did it i liked it and i finally just said fxck it im telling mine…people seem to  not judge,
and what you know i posted my hey im new and my story and people were so supportive and i felt like i was finally in a place were people new my pain and there advice would maybe actually help because they went through it and still are!
And since that day few days ago this site has helped me a little in a way and i’m thanking all of you for being so strong,
knowing how hard it is to post what hurts you even if your anonymous…it sooo brave!
I admire it all!
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Are you a cop or a psychologist? 🙂
No im not, why you ask?
I’m so glad your search brought you here. I find you to be one of the strongest people I’ve had the pleasure of talking to. We all struggle here but the fact that no one judges us on weather we end it or not is comforting to me. <3 I hope you continue to heal and peace comes to you
Thank you that means a lot, me too i hope your doing good as well and have a blessed day!!
Oh, once you tell one heart ripping tear jearking massively fucked up depression story, the next one is much easier.
And then you get to the point you enjoy it.
Then you start making up horrible stories about yourself. That’s when SP kicks you out.
So you find yourself on the street with print outs of your latest fabrication, begging random people to read them.
Not a pretty sight.
LOL XD
What do you mean?
SeeSmith i dont exactly understand what your saying!
It was funnier in my head than in print.
Humor, sorry. I need a special icon that warns people.
Oh haha well okay i see now! lol i was like whats going on ahah! my bad okay SeeSmith
I got a heads up from Salt ( a veteran poster that went off the grid in January, not sure what his status actually is) about SeeSmith and his humor so I knew what to expect. He’s very odd at times but we like him. He does give great advice, just has his own way of delivering it…. and if nothing else he makes you laugh or smile. 🙂
Salt is like the tortured slightly dim kid brother I never wanted.
lol I really do miss Salt… he and Mellow are killing me with their disappearances. Neither was doing well last I had contact with them. I know it’s a suicide board and should be expected, but it upsets me anyhow…. I hate being so caring and empathetic sometimes! Damn the human condition sometimes!
I’m glad you discovered this place, KatRose. I enjoy reading your posts. Hope things get better for you.
thank you, me too!! glad you did too this is a good place for me!
I discovered SP one night when I was researching suicide methods.. Soon found it was far more comforting here than further learning how extremely difficult it would be for me to actually commit suicide..
Yes i understand that! im glad it help you to!
me too! i dont know if you stumbled across lost all hopes website, but i did and i was picking a few methods (just like u did to make sure i would die) and then i found the suicide project…
Yeah crazy but im alive bc of sp!