I just wrote almost 300 words of a post draft before realizing that I sounded like a fucking idiot. So I’m gonna try again.
Long story short, there are new “voices” (NOTE: I’m not actually hearing voices; these are in my head). And they’re telling me to do something very, very bad, or else they’ll kill me.
My two options are either death and Hell, or death and Hell. Or death and death. Whichever, depending. I can’t win.
They won’t leave me alone. I keep begging but they won’t go away. They’re sadistic.
Why is this happening to me? I can see no way out, and all I can do is wonder why I’m being punished like this.
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Maybe you should go to the hospital if you are hearing voices
I’m not hearing them. They’re in my head.
Then go to a hospital. You need lithium or something
I’m scared. If I go to the hospital, my family is going to find out about everything and the doctors probably won’t even believe me. I’m fucking losing it.
Voices cannot harm you, except through your own actions. I suggest going to the hospital and calmly explaining that you are hearing voices, that you know they are not real, and that you would like some help. That’s the safest and best way.
They’ve already harmed me twice today. Both times were as warnings, and to prove they weren’t bluffing. So I know they can really kill me if they want. And the doctors probably won’t believe me.
Your only option is to go the hospital or lose your mind. The voices will only go away if you go the hospital and get some meds
If you want to suffer then stay put and don’t seek help. I dont know why you posting on here if you don’t help. Do what you want I don’t care
I do want help. I was just hoping that I can get help that does not involve a hospital, which WON’T HELP.
This is a little like telling a 9 year old that the spider in the corner of her room can’t hurt her, she should ignore it. Never gonna happen. That’s why people with severe psych issues have ongoing treatment with counseling and meds. Obviously our friend needs to get seen but a lot of people like this are afraid of that too
Please excuse my ignorance, but does it help to converse with them? I understand it wouldn’t be a real two-way conversation, but just like how people often talk to themselves when they are worried about something, would it be calming to do something similar?
I don’t think so. They’ll respond to me. And the more they’ve been talking to me, the more it upsets me. So I don’t want to increase how much they talk to me.
Ah, so the more you refuse to acknowledge them the quieter they become?
I don’t know. I do know that this morning, I tried my best to ignore them, and then they hurt me, twice.
May I ask what they did to harm you?
Well, the first time, I was in one of my classes, and suddenly the air got hard to breathe. It felt like I was breathing through a straw. My pulse slowed to a crawl, which freaked me out because I normally have a faster heart rate than normal on account of my medicine. I spaced out, and suddenly felt incredibly weak. Couldn’t even think straight or hold my pencil. Got a pounding headache (which I’ve had ever since), started to feel incredibly dizzy and thought for sure I was going to fall out of my seat and pass out. It was terrifying.
And the second time, the same thing happened, but in my other class. They told me that they were responsible for it.
That sounds quite a bit like a panic attack. If that’s the case, then I would say it was to make you believe they could harm you when they really can’t. I believe you have more power against the voices than you realize you do.
I hope you’re right. I’ve never had a panic attack quite like that before, but that could very well have been what it was.
@whiskered fish
Well you are shit out of luck if you don’t want to go to the hospital, cause you need a doctor to diagnosis you and prescribe the proper medication.
The only thing that will make the voices go away is that you go to the hospital and let the doctor help you. If you don’t want to do that, stay put and suffer and stop bothering everyone
Hey man, no need to be hostile…
You can give advice, but telling someone to stay put and suffer is not okay…
@whiskered-fish, you are not a bother by sharing this.
I also suggest you go to the hospital, and seek a doctor. You think the doctor won’t believe you, but you really don’t know that. You’d be surprised how understanding some people can be, regardless of how things may seem.
Explain your symptoms and how you are feeling, and go from there.
Thanks Trey. But how am I going to tell my family about this? I can’t drive, so they’ll have to take me. It’s 10 at night and everyone is in bed. What do I say?
This is terrifying and I’m so lost.
How am I a bother to you when you can just scroll past this post and ignore it?
Listen, I don’t know what you’re going through right now, but I ask you to please NOT take it out on me. I’ve done absolutely nothing to you.
Whiskered fish,…. sounds like you take aderrall? Not sure how long you have been taking that but maybe you are experiencing side effects. Or maybe it’s from something else, I know it’s possible to trigger some conditions just through marajuanna use. No matter what it is I suggest telling your family the mess you are taking are making you feel bad and mind is racing,.. ect whatever you want to say. Ask to go back to talk to the doc about it. Doctors won’t assume you are lying that wood be malpractice and they could get sued. Some won’t care and won’t deal with you they will just keep you until they can get a psychiatrist to come see you, and that’s their whole field so they won’t be dicks about it. Even self enduced drug related issues,… psych docs are trained to handle all patients companionately. There is even a disease of the mind where patients lie about symptoms just to get attention from docs (munchousens) even those patents get real care and their problem is that they are lying
Not aderall, but Vyvanse. Basically glorified poison. Anyway, how did you know? I guess it was because I mentioned my usual racing pulse, right? You’re very sharp.
Can yo email me again? my email is: stefan at deds.nl
Sure thing.
Ok i realy ope to hear from you again.
They were completely quiet today, and I don’t know why. I think it’s because they knew that if they weren’t quiet, I’d be able to get help today. And we can’t have that, now can we? That would lead to me getting better, and I’m not allowed to get better, oh no. I have to be crazy till the day I die.