I decided that i’m going back to being thin, I’m fasting and eating small and drinking mostly water!
I’m going to do my makeup dark again or not wear any at all!
I will not talk to anyone in person anymore, just keep to myself!
I’m going to do school and give it all i got, and get it done!
I’m going to save up every little bit of money i can get my hands on!
I’m going to focus on working out and thinspo!
I won’t cut my arms anymore nor the rest my body!
I’m listening to more my music(Asking Alexandria, Nirvana, 80s R&B, Melanie Martinez, Paramore, and my favorite Die Antwoord)
I will NOT take anymore shit!
I will take negativity and turn it into inspiration to be better than the piece shit i am!
I’m not going to be any fatter than i am now ever again!
I will not focus on anyone but me(My sister sill matters)
I’m deleted all my social media and i don’t text!
I’m my own friend, because in the end i only have my own back!
I tell everyone who did me wrong to fuck off!
I will dress, act, be, do me and if anyone doesn’t like it they can fuck off and shut the hell up, i just don’t give af!
I’m going to lose weight as fast as possible, then go to prom and look good for me and everyone can fuckk off!
I’m going to lose shit ton weight before my uncles wedding in oct, then so on!
I’m going to say fuck the WORLD, and try to do me for a change!
I’m going to keep my feelings to myself!
I will start doing me the way i think is right…i will also just tell everyone i’m gay i just don’t care how anyone feels about it, i’m sooo done and sick of trying to like a gender i’m not even into or really sexually into…tbh i just imagine there girls and it helps lol…but fuck that!
I decided to fucking try to change what i hate about me and what i feel like is me, and i feel better about it!
FUCK THIS BULLSHIT I’M LIVING I’M DOING MY SHIT!
I’ll make sure to post every month how i’m doing and if its working!(; <3
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Good for you! You have to look out for yourself…. No one else will! Wishing you the best…
Thank you love, means a lot, hope the best for you too!
GOOD FOR YOU. Honestly this takes so much strength to do, and I can honestly say I wouldn’t be able to do this. But really, good for you. I might not know you but I’m happy you’re planning on doing this. Good luck with it all!!!
THANK YOU HUN, really means a lot…tbh i’m just so done being a week ass *****…my mumma didn’t raise no ***** but yet im acting like a lil *****…I”M DONE….so im going to try it…i’ve done the thinspo before but this time im sticking to it…i’m going to try this before i lose it and end it! Your a strong person everyone has strength it just takes longer and more pushing for some..i believe in you and everyone else…weither you be free alive or dead, i feel like i’ll always be proud and believe in you and everyone else! Your strong..every ones strong in all different ways! Thank you again!