Its been about a year since i have been on here. i mean my life was going pretty well and about a month ago it all went to shit. then about a few days ago someone i know died. it was extremely sudden and scares me because you dont realize how easy it is for someone to disappear until you see it for yourself. he didnt want to die.. i mean he isnt.. i mean wasnt like us on SP. so thats what makes me sad. sometimes i know the world would just be better off without me but then.. i feel so ashamed for feeling this way.. especially when someone i know died, and he didnt want to.
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Its okay to feel sad but don’t feel like you must feel ashamed. Everyone’s situation is unique to them just because he wanted to live makes it sad but doesn’t necessarily make you feel like you want to live any more than he wanted to die, do you see what I mean? This is still fresh raw so you are bound to be scrutinizing, thinking it over in all kinds of ways but how you truly think and feel is unique to you and you should not feel ashamed of it. I’m sorry for your loss and it’s lovely to meet you. *hug*
If you’d like a second opinion, missingLink is spot-on. The argument that you should want to live because someone who did just lost their life is very similar to saying you should overeat by finishing your plate because someone else far away has no food. That won’t make this better for either person. I am sorry you lost a loved one. Really special people get the same deal we do though, they live or die whether they wanted to or not.
we ARE really special, I meant YOUR special person. 🙂 lol
awww thanks guys. this really means alot to me
Its nice to meet you too. and thank you for saying all that. it made me feel better. *hugs back*
I know how you feel Dawn. btw I recognize your user from back then.. Anyways, I’ve lost two classmates and an old school nurse to death in the past year. It’s always rough having a person you know die, regardless of how well you may have known them. It’s okay to feel sad when it happens, it’s only natural.
I thought i recognized you Trey. I just wasnt sure. How have things been for you? thanks for understanding. I did not know him well. We were just acquaintances, but its still crazy how much someone can effect you.
I’m okay for now. Just trying to move forward with my life for once….
Yeah, the funny thing is with both of my classmates (one graduated with me, the other graduated last year), I performed on stage with both of them in high school. Both were very talented and kind people. It’s rough on everyone around the person, and it’s never easy to move forward, especially if you were extremely close. Their families are still in the process of grieving, and while they will eventually move on, they’ll always miss their son and daughter. It’s just how it is I guess.