I’ve Gone Insane

I feel you. I’ve been without anyone for almost a year now. I keep telling myself the same things. Trying to be a lone wolf. But if I am a lone wolf. Why can I miss someone. Why can I miss interaction in the real world? I try to ignore it. But I’m not sure if it is just causing me more harm. I’ve always been the outcast in society. Even I had “friends”… I was always on the outside circle. I’m feel like a ghost. So I try to be a silent ghost and do my own thing. Not letting anyone bother me. I have my computer, I have my internet friends. Screw the real world. My life is on here. Not outside that door. And it’s been so for ~10 years. I’m a shut in. Anyone who comes too close to me, I just end up hurting them even if it is unintentional. And you think you’re cold. I’m freezing. Though I try not to think about it and hide that fact. I don’t think I have it so bad. Sure I might be suicidal. But there are people feeling worse than me. That is a fact that somewhat contains me.

If you wanna meet some genuinely great people who don’t judge and will accept you for who you are. You can always hangout with some of the more active SP members on Waveform.
suicideproject.org/2017/02/bored-suicidal-insane/