Hello. Do you ever have those little moments of clarity? You will be doing whatever it is you are doing at that point, and it just kind of snaps in your head. How pointless it all is. The thing is that you are aware of this fact already, but for some reason at that exact moment, it seems more real than it normally does. The weight of nothingness. You think about it for a moment, and just sit there for a minute or two, staring off into space. Your knees get a bit weak and things either start getting a bit bright or dark, depending on who you are. I remember I used to have the same feeling when it came to living. When you are a small kid and you think to yourself “I am alive, I exist on this earth.” At that moment it kind of amazes you that that is indeed a fact. It’s strange how flipped the situation is now. Thanks for listening if you are.
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Yes.
Yup. I have that moment from when I wake up to when I sleep. Although sometimes it just hits me harder then normal. Realizing how pointless existence is.
Yes. I thought (when I haven’t collapsed) it’s the source of all good things I had.
Now when I have this feeling–it’s like a sudden, clear, distinct distance from the world and from this shit that is called my life–I feel that this distance says that there should be a change, either a sudden, magical recover from all meaningless pain (which is unlikely), or to die.
I guess we need to find ways to make better use of these moments of clarity.