Hello. So after thinking about it for a bit I realized that I teeter between two type of general “moods” I guess you would call them. Either I get into this depressive state where I don’t want to say or do anything and I keep my mouth completely shut and keep my head down. Basically I’ve checked out. Or I get in this hyper active mood where the dumbest, inane, and disturbing things come out of my mouth. I’m this bizarre freak that takes weird pleasure from watching the reactions I get from people. Either way I feel that I’ve stopped caring about the things I used to. School, Games, the People around me. To be honest I don’t even know why I’m like this. I don’t even really know how I feel anymore. I’m not even sure that I’m depressed. I know that I don’t have any real purpose and I know that I am not happy with the way things are now. I think and talk a lot about dying. The thing is, why haven’t I done anything about it yet. If I was so committed to the idea, wouldn’t I have done something about now. I don’t feel happy and I don’t know why. No one’s even listening. I can’t expect people to. They have their own problems they need to take care of. Thanks for listening if you are.
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Maybe you’re bipolar, read up on it. It might help to understand how you feel and why you feel the way you do. It’s pretty common in the mental health world of diagnoses.