Why is this one different?

Hello. Why does this bother you? It’s the same as before, so you should already know this feeling. It still bothers you though. Why is that? It’s easiest when nothing happens. You don’t think about it. Yet you felt the need to say something. You could have just remained silent. This is no different from all the other times. This one shouldn’t be feel any different. The weekends are boring and lonely and the regular week is long and difficult. I’ve just been dragging myself through it all. Inch by inch. Scrapping my lifeless carcass against the floor. The fact that this is such a prevalent thing in my head makes it worse. I need to leave. It just isn’t working. I need to leave. I need to wipe my head clean and leave. I just need to get up and walk in any direction. Just keep walking. This feeling is very itchy. I’ve been interested in scary movies recently. I normally don’t like them, but Split was really good and The Cure for Wellness looks good. I loved Hedwig. Thank you for listening if you are. Please tell me you are. Just any sign.