You know I have tried my hardest. I love you. You’ve been my dearest friend, my little brother. Once a lonesome Rogue and a fox in the snow. There need no words to describe how I feel about you, and the deep appreciation I have for our friendship.
I’ve gone through so many struggles and trials in my life. Health has been my biggest challenge. Throughout my worse times, I have never felt unsafe with no home to go to. I never lost so much money, now destitute.
To Jesus, my dear beautiful friend. You will never see this message, but I will love you always, my best friend when I was 17. I wish we were little kids running around again, hitching to San Jose and breaking night. Please take better care of yourself. Tonight, you kept telling me to go home, go home. There is no home.
Judy, thank you for loving me. I know your heart is hurting for me.
Sunny boy, I will always love you. If I had you, you will take all my pain away. But I can’t turn back time. Mommy will love you forever.
S and S, my little darlings. Wish I can hold you both in my arms forever. Take care of you forever. I want to so badly. I don’t know what to do.
The next couple weeks will determine my fate.
I never felt this unsafe. There is nothing to go back to, no home, no where safe.
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Plz don’t do anything fox
Hope you are doing well today and continue to feel better.
Yes thanks for caring I’m doing really good today I’m going out again with friends to eat.How are you doing fox?
I’m so sorry to hear things didn’t work out for you with your recent venture and relationship, Fox… would it help you to set up a GoFund me account? I don’t have much but I’ll donate what I can…
Thank you, Nepheliad. No, I wouldn’t want you to do that, but thank you, sweet of you to offer. I would be too ashamed to do a GoFund me anyway. Without getting some money back from them for the money I’ve spent to come here and things I bought for us, I won’t be able to survive and find a new place. I have decided to say goodbye if they won’t compensate. I’m really done with a life full of bad things.
Good to hear. I’m not well. Enjoy yourself, ok?
Yes thanks again I will.Is there anything that will make you feel better?
No, but thank you. I’m in a very bad place.
Hey so the guy that left you met on here on so?
Yea. Met him on a depression chat and he was on here.
Ahhh that’s ironic someone could be so cold knowing your depressed n leave u.Some people have no heart
He was having a hard time coping with the stress of our apartment situation. He got a job and I think it was too much for him. He suffers from depression and anxiety and I guess it was all too much. Bottom line is, he chose to leave and left the way that he did- it was traumatizing. But my main concern now is my safety and where do I go from here. I spent all the money I had in the world for our “fresh start” And now I am stuck here without any hope of getting a new place because I don’t have much left. I want some of my losses compensated. I spent a lot here… I bought a lot of things for us.. I just want to be able to have money back so I can somehow figure out where I can go from here. He can’t relate to any of this because he’s rich and will always be rescued, never learning any life lessons through hardships. He will never understand how scared I am right now.
Him being stressed out n having anxiety n depression is no excuse for him to put all of tht weight on u instead.Yes I would be traumatized too if tht happened to me.Yes safety for you and your kid should be the most important rn.Who do you expect to compensate u?Yes people like him will never understand what we go thru.
I can’t paint him out to be entirely bad, because I know he had good intentions for us. I was stupid to not have been more careful in choosing this path with him. I knew all his issues but he was slowly working through them, I felt he was getting better through our relationship. He was getting stronger than he was when I met him. But there were signs that his issues were deep seated and they would come up to the surface. I know he did try to be strong for me. It’s a two way street- I have my issues as well, I know I’m not easy at times. But his love had many conditions, he was selfish. He learned that from his parents. There were a lot of things that they said that was upsetting throughout our relationship. Everything was paid for by his parents. He did get a job, and I was really proud of him, because he had a lot of trouble working before because of anxiety. I understand that it was hard for him but I always told him that you have to keep doing it and it gets better each day.. I knew how hard it was for him to have all these new responsibilities .. but in the end, he gave up when it got hard. It was much easier for him to just go back home and live in his bubble. Now, he won’t have to ever work. The week before he walked out on me he told me wanted to make things work and that he loved me. Bought me flowers the night before he walked out on me. Came home from work and was gone in an hour and a half . Quit his job that same day.
Yes , son and I, and dogs are all I care about now. But I have nothing and nowhere for them now.
I know people that never have to worry financially because of very wealthy families or ex – husband’s alimony. They take their kids to private schools and the monthly tuition is twice than someone’s rent. They have problems and struggles like the rest of us but they have one least thing to worry about. They shouldn’t pretend to ever understand the rest of the world that struggles.
Yes sadly you chose the wrong person but it’s hard to tell people’s intentions when you meet them.And I agree that some people never have to worry they got money or live of ex spouses money.My condolances to you and your family hopefully it gets better.