Trying and failing, especially as it seemed I came so close to succeeding, rocked my world. Failing did not so much make want to live but rather made me resigned to live unless of course something traumatic enough comes along to put me back on the suicide track. Which almost happened just about two months ago.
Fail to fail, that is a good way to phrase it.
Sorry about your chest pain. That would drive me nuts after awhile.
I cried a lot up into my teen years. That was long enough ago that I don’t remember what part of my body I felt things in back then. I have had temporary relief from anxiety by taking L-theanine. It is natural.
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My cat pees on my clean laundry.. makes me feel worse
That happens a lot to me too. More annoying than anything honestly.
I’m listening to music right now.. bored and being obsessed with SP
What kind of music? I just have the tv on in the background
I am looping Carpet of the Sun by Renaissance.
All types. YouTube videos , a lot of remixes lately
After last failed attempt I had lots of cries after I was “saved”.
Maybe I need to try and fail to want to live. Either way, if I fail to fail and die, then perhaps I’ll have my peace.
But the pain in my chest is sickening.
Trying and failing, especially as it seemed I came so close to succeeding, rocked my world. Failing did not so much make want to live but rather made me resigned to live unless of course something traumatic enough comes along to put me back on the suicide track. Which almost happened just about two months ago.
Fail to fail, that is a good way to phrase it.
Sorry about your chest pain. That would drive me nuts after awhile.
That makes sense. I am glad you are here to comment though. My chest pains usually come from anxiety, and crying too much, haha.
I cried a lot up into my teen years. That was long enough ago that I don’t remember what part of my body I felt things in back then. I have had temporary relief from anxiety by taking L-theanine. It is natural.