i’m a high school student, will be sitting for my A levels next year. i have no faith in my future, and i have no desire to live past the age of 21.
however, the time is not right. i have several things to take care of. yet everyday seems pointless, it’s killing me (haha) to even exist in this moment.
truthfully, i am quite a coward. even when i have a strong desire to die, i always gave up in the very last second. i am afraid of the aftermath. what would happen if i was rescued? how to make sure nobody can interrupt my plans? what would my parents do, can they live well after my death? (in this case, i hope that by disappearing they will have lesser burden to bear)
there’s quite a number of things for me to consider.i’ll put this on as my first post for now. let’s see if i have cleared things up in a few weeks time.
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Unless they’re “monsters”, losing a child is something that parents never get over. That is just simply a fact.
Anyway, it’s quite normal to be uncertain about the future, or have no faith in it, at your age. Is there nothing that you want to do, no vague aspirations?
O and welcome to SP.