Why? Why am I still here for god sake. I don’t have the balls to do it. I’m such a disappointment such a fuck up. Not even the vodka I have can silence the dark thoughts silence the pain that I cant help but want to inflict on myself.
Someone please just end it for me. I’m not a good person no one will care. Just please put me down the the stupid ugly animal that I am before I fuck anyone else up!!!!
I WANT TO DIE. And no one can change that
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hello. im not going to lie to you and say, “life is worth it, it gets better” because thats not true for everyone. but i wont tell you to kill yourself, either. honestly, its your life so its your choice, but live for the small moments. i would live for that second you were proud of yourself, or those impossible dreams that you want to try anyway. thats what makes life interesting. but life is temporary. you only got one chance, and you still have some time left. if you want to do more, go for it. if not, we’re all clocks ticking down anyway. but at least try, and then try again, and keep on going until something works.
Because you want to live. Your soul is saying it is not ready. You have a reason to be here and a purpose, you just don’t know it yet. Trust me, a stranger, one day many days,months or maybe years from now you’ll know what it was.
I don’t know if I chug enough Vodka and beer down normally I pass out and then that silences the thoughts… temporarily.