What A Week

It’s hard to determine what’s even going on anymore. It all just seems like a big jumbled mess. I think the new medication is messing with my head. Everything feels all lethargic and sleepy. Like having a big meal in the afternoon and getting that big sleepy vibe. You can feel it in the back of the eyes and on the front top of the skull. The thing is it lasts all day. Nothing tastes good. Everything tastes like sand. I don’t even know if going to the hospital is a good thing. They want me to keep pushing forward, but I don’t know if I got it in me. Just give me some advice. Any advice. I changed the light bulbs in my room. Now everything looks pure white. It hurts the eyes. Everything has this annoying depth to it. Like watching a bad 3D movie. I feel cold when the fan is on and hot when the fan is off. My feet feel cold and cracked. I still want to live. I maintain that feeling. I just don’t know for how long. Someone just speak up for a second. Anyone.