Im so done. My biological dad is trying to apologize. Trying to say hes sorry for not being there. Like it fucking matters. Like he didnt almost kill my mother. Like him leaving twice didnt kill me. Like it all didnt lead me to attempting. To wanting to gice up. Lile his half hearted bullshit apology fucking MATTERS. or fixes anything. His im sorry doesnt mean shit. My mom spent most of my life as a single mom making it work and god knows Ive spent most of my life without a fucking father. And now from a comfort from a jail cell he wants to APOLOGIZE like it fucking means anything. Hes jist a voice. Thats it.
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Finallyyyyyy… U can’t imagine how I’v been wanting to respond to you since ur first post… If i could explain to you how everytime i try to write you, something happens that would prevent me…. uhhh… Really sorry 🙁
Your posts really touched me 🙁
I can only imagine how badly the loss of ur mother must have affected you [& i truly am sorry u lost her]
& i can imagine how u feel towards ur dad
But honey u cant let these be reasons to quit all together… 🙁
I really really want to talk with you
eventhough i know that no matter who talks to u
No one can or ever will replace ur mom
But i can try my best to be a good friend…
My email is
farahlajeennouraldeen.1
@gmail
I’ll just get some sleep
‘& be right back
Lots of love
<3
Your dad really sounda like an asshole I would never talk to him again if I was on your place.
Being in jail can do some funny things to your mind.
For some people, it’s the 1st time they have been straight headed for a while, so it can bring clarity of thought.
For others, it can be boredom,. And the amount of free time that prison can give you, gives you the opportunity to be the biggest troll since ‘oprah’s 9000 penis’s’ fiasco.
I’m not saying to forget what he has done, but forgiveness ‘could’ possibly make you feel better.
It still doesn’t mean you have to have him in your life again.
My own scenario.. Abandoned at a young age, placed into care and made to feel as insignificant as a used condom.
Can i forget the past? nope
But everyone is flawed and i can forgive my parents, even if i don’t want to have a relationship with the surviving one.
I hope you can get past this and find some way to bring peace to yourself. Just don’t let the bitterness consume you, or you could become a lot worse off for it.
honey, u there? 🙁 Please let us know how u’r doing… okay