I can’t take my broken brain and broken heart and broken spirit anymore. All my feelings and emotions and inadequacies and fears and pain and everything else – it’s torturing me. I am mentally torturing myself. But I don’t know how to stop. If any of us did, we wouldn’t be here.
I’m tired of trying and never getting anywhere. I’m tired of being sick. I’m tired of being too exhausted to do anything. I’m tired of never feeling good enough. I’m tired of living this crappy life. I’m tired of being me. Too much pain :'(
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You know what you have to do. Just do it. Don’t let your fears and insecurities get in the way. Don’t give too much of your power over to these fears. Confront these fears of yours. You’ll find that these fears aren’t warranted. The scenarios you’re playing out in your head are most likely BS. Get out of your mind and confront them. That’s the only way to get over them. Some of us come on here because we have recovered and we’re now the ones supporting the broken. If you’re tired of you’re current life then change something about it. Make some dramatic changes. Take a leap of faith into the desired unknown. I’ve done this before and I found that the things that I feared weren’t really warranted. I gave my fears power just the same way you’re giving power to your fears. The longer you put it off, the stronger those fears become.
It isn’t fear that’s the problem- I’ve lost the will to live.