eternaldarkness

So this doesn’t apply as much to you young folks, bc you still have a chance. But for us single middle age folk- if we haven’t been able to find a suitable person to want to be with us by now, what chance is that going to happen in the next 5 years? or even 10 years (although at that point we’re getting pretty fucking old).

There’s the “left over” theory- ie those that are good quality men and women, get snatched up early. Those who are left, well, they’re not really desirable- people who are poor, ugly, disabled, depressed, unmotivated, unproductive, not smart, […]

What would you undo?

edit-
lol i had originally meant in ur own life, like any “mistakes” or choices that would have brought out dramatic changes in your life, like just switching majors or having gone to a different school. had i gone with what i originally wanted to do at the original uni i wanted to go to, my life would have been MUCH different. sigh. 🙁

or what if i had tried running away when i was little and actually done it?

I’ve been so depressed the last few months that I’m not even eating. Ok, it’s more like due to my fatigue and health issues, it’s the GETTING food that is the big problem. I could do it, but it’s so taxing on me. Which means I haven’t been going as often as I need and so I’ve been going hungry.

I told myself I need to go to the grocery store today, but yet again, I am lying in bed not doing it.

It’s so fucking bullocks that you have to keep getting groceries, keep eating, just to live. I […]

What would you undo?

I wouldn’t be half as depressed if food, housing, transportation, or anything related to LIVING weren’t so goddamn expensive.

It was always expensive before, but since covid, the cost of EVERY FUCKING THING has skyrocketed. How am I supposed to be happy if I am poor and can’t afford anything?

Telling me to “think positive” doesn’t do me shit if I’m hungry and my brain is throbbing from lack of affordable nutritious food. And going there without transportation to lug all the food back is a problem too, especially if you’re disabled and sick.

People have REAL problems. Whether it’s lack of money or […]

This post isn’t about politics. I am not a Republican or Democrat (I hate them all, all the establishment shills), and I don’t care for Trump, but he did give us a good term- Fake News. This video is the definition of Fake News.

This is a good example of what our “news” is really like. This isn’t even political or covering anything controversial- just RAIN. But even coverage of something that’s just rain is being painted and pretended to be something it’s not. And this was 11 years ago, before the age of “Fake News.” This was back when […]

There’s a TON of things online that is just not true, but is put out there like it is. No, I’m not talking flat-earthers and such. I’m talking from things like science, diet, nutrition, finance, money, economy, etc. There’s so much “misinformation” out there, both intentional and unintentional, and it’s coming from everywhere- MSM but also alternative sites too. Nobody can agree on the facts. And I’m not just talking politics. Talking about everything- name any subject.

I hate how when ppl write stuff online, ppl just take that author’s word as fact. Just say you’re publishing Opinion Pieces, […]

What do you do when you no longer have the energy or the willpower to fix your life? No one is going to fix our life for us, or help us. But when you’re sick, have no energy, can barely sustain going to the grocery store and showering, then how tf is anything going to get better?

all i can do is get through each day, which means laundry, food, showering, brushing teeth, etc. After it’s done, you crash. then repeat the next day and next day and next week and next month. No energy to do anything more than that. […]

How can we be happy and productive when our bodies feel like crap 97% of the time? This isn’t even about depression. I have so many health issues. It’s impossible to have any kind of life, let alone enjoy one’s life, when you’re always feeling like crap- physically. Which then obviously brings on the depression.

For about a few hours last night, I felt physically ok-ish. So therefore mentally I was doing ok. But now I’m back to feeling like crap, physically. So therefore I’m now back to feeling depressed again.

I just can’t.
I want my misery to end.

No one is going to save me, and I’m too sick and broken to save myself.

too long to type but FML, just FM shitty life

You know, I had always thought mind control would be the best superpower to have. It probably still is. Along with self-healing. Or time travelling. Or the power to see the future.

Ooh there’s new powers i’ve never heard of:
omnifabrication- the ability to invent anything.
omnimanipulation- the ability to manipulate anything and everything- time/space, objects, mind, life/death, etc. now that’s just cheating! lol

But I’m thinking the power of “luck” would be cool too. It’s a power you can’t directly control, but shit, it sure would be nice to be “lucky” for a change.

would greatly reduce my stress and anxiety over lack of money
reduce my depression from my lack of resources to go places, do things, see things, afford things
pay ppl to help me do things
afford better, healthier, and tastier food
oh yeah, and have an actual NICE place to live in instead of worrying over fucking mold/mildew/stale/rotten air
would do wonders for my depression.
and my health.

who says money doesn’t buy happiness or help depression?
fuck yeah it’d help me. LOTS.

you notice how the people who always say “money doesn’t buy happiness” never give it away.
funny how that is eh?

who would you be? could be from any movie, tv show, anime, cartoon, etc.

cuz i sure am

What a waste to live life having depression 90% of your life. Years and decades go by and you’re miserable af. Severe depression is so debilitating. And no one understands. We’re just labeled as “lazy” and shunned by society.

19 Lies You Were Told as a Kid—That You Probably Still Believe

Adam and Eve ate an apple
“We see it in artwork, in TV shows, and movies that the forbidden fruit Adam and Eve ate referenced in the bible was an apple, right? Not so much. It is never actually referred to as any specific fruit. Many theologists theorize that, given the other geographical landmarks referenced, the fruit was likely a pomegranate or fig.”

Holy cow, I’m not religious but I just assumed there was an apple in the bible in the Adam and Eve story, bc that’s just what we’ve all been told, everywhere. […]

The fuck is this? Oppositional Defiant Disorder??
They’re just straight up making up shit.

Oppositional Defiant Disorder- ODD
“A disorder in a child marked by defiant and disobedient behavior to authority figures.
The cause of oppositional defiant disorder is unknown but likely involves a combination of genetic and environmental factors.
Symptoms generally begin before a child is eight years old. They include irritable mood, argumentative and defiant behavior, aggression, and vindictiveness that last more than six months and cause significant problems at home or school.
Treatment involves individual and family therapy.”

So literally anyone who doesn’t believe in mainstream propaganda or doesn’t believe in authoritarian rules […]

I’m so damned tired- physically exhausted- but can’t sleep, then can’t function during the day. I am so weak. Bc I’m too exhausted to even go to the grocery store, then I don’t have enough nutrients, causing me to be even more weak and tired.

It hurts so bad.

I don’t want to be sick and tired anymore. No one knows what it’s like except for the ppl who are chronically ill and with chronic fatigue syndrome. It’s absolute fucking torture. And yes, I WOULD wish it on my worst enemy.

Woke up to being thrown out of my guild in this stupid game I’m playing. Then I went to join another guild, only to be kicked out of that one bc “my team is too weak.”

TF. We can’t even play games now without having to be in teams or guilds where you have to rely on others to do their end of the “work” and to do it well.

Whatever happened to just playing a fucking game at your own pace and having fun? Back in the day, games weren’t so “team” based. It’s fucking annoying now.

It wouldn’t be such a fucking […]