…when you no longer have the energy to fight? to get up? to live? when you no longer care about anything anymore?
It’s one thing to be depressed- I’ve been depressed my entire life. But it’s different once you lose your desire to live. Then nothing matters. You can’t do anything because you don’t care anymore. You’re utterly defeated and hopeless.
Uplifting words are just that. When you have depression, thinking happy thoughts and happy words just don’t work. When you’ve lost your will to live, uplifting motivational words or videos don’t work either. People telling you to cheer up and think good things will come, just doesn’t work. If it did, I don’t think any of us would be here on SP.
What the hell works? What can break through my dense fog of sadness, pain, anguish, regret, and hopelessness?
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Try to go somewhere outside more? Nature. Away from people. Sometimes it makes me forget. It can force you to just be in the moment and observe what’s happening in your immediate surroundings.
Do you do anything creative Eternal?
Sorry if this was all annoying and maybe even kind of proving your point. It’s just, what sometimes helps me. I know a lot of times it’s the issue of no energy to bother… I know things hurt and it sucks. But there is still stuff to see if you really want to. Just have to put yourself in the right environment for you
I know you’re just trying to help. If I wanted to get out and go to a park, I guess I could. But I don’t want to. That’s the problem. I don’t care about anything anymore. I used to at least go out to movies or have dinners or do fun activities. I was never happy but at least I did get out a bit. Now, I just hate the world and everything in it, and want nothing to do with this crappy world. Sorry it’s depressing. I feel like s***. It’s been like this bad the last 2.5 years. I’ve been depressed since I was a kid, but it’s different now. I can’t explain it.
I totally can relate, I’ve reached different levels of depression… even during good cycles it’s still there.
Does anything pique your interest at all? Is there anything left that you desire? Does anything “put a flame under your ass” and get you moving? A thought, an idea, even a person/place/thing?
Nope. Nothing. Not even planning for death. Those who want to plan at least have SOME zeal for something, even if it is offing oneself. I feel like a zombie / ghost / something that is half alive, half dead. It’s the worst to be like this. And I can’t “snap” out of it.
What if you tried something nuts/adrenaline worthy? Like skydiving
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You’re right, it’s one thing to be depressed but once you lose that desire to live, nothing in the world can make you happy. You lose your will, your love and your compassion for everything and everyone. Things that would make a normal person scared you laugh at, it’s funny when I was younger I was afraid of monsters and ghosts and the scary monster under my bed. Now I wish that monster under my bed would kill my already.
I have lost my will, but I have not lost my emotions- more like the opposite. I feel and care TOO much, that’s why the world feels so awful.
Maybe that’s true, maybe it’s because I care to much which makes everything feel horrible.