Unless you suffer from a lack of energy as I did suffer in the past, you should bear in mind that thanks to the internet there is always something new you can do. There is always a new worth reading spiritual book. Or a new beautiful song. I recommend you brainwave entertainment music. It’s life changing.

There is always something new you can admire, read or see and give you a sweet memory.

I recommend you start reading the book “The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne. It’s a good start.

You can improve your life too, like thousands of other people who have changed their lives.

And yes, I relate. I understand your situation. It’s really difficult. But there is also a way out. And it’s something much better than suicide.