I am so overwhelmed with urge to commit today i just dont know what to do. And this quote comes to mind. Someone from this website shared it with me and i think it has really stuck with me.
“Killing oneself is anyway a misnomer. We don’t kill ourselves. We are simply defeated by the long hard struggle to stay alive. When somebody dies after a long illness people are apt to say, with a note of approval, “he fought so hard”. And they are inclined to say about suicide that no fight was involved, that somebody simply gave up. This is in fact quite wrong.”
-Sally Brampton.
We fight harder to stay alive than most. The pain is suffocating me. I just want peace. I just want to go.
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<3
my heart is with you love
it's okay
I know some days can be really hard
& sometimes for no apparent reason at all…
please do fight
I'd fight with you & for you all the way
everyday
if you'd let me
<3
I'd be honored if you could consider me your ally in this survival war
just show me your enemies
if you know what's saddening / hurting you
please tell me
& I'll do my out most best to help
if you don't know
let's talk
& I'm sure, at some point, we'll be able to see what's wrong / missing
so we could fix it
<3
🙂
I wish you all the best
[
p.s.
my email is
farahlajeennouraldeen.1@gmail
please know that you're most most welcome to contact me any time <3
]
heyyy
I wrote u a comment
but it’s “being moderated” for some reason
please read it when it’s “released” 🙂
<3
I’m with you today. I’ve never wanted to end it more than this week. So, so numb. I know we fight so incredibly hard. We aren’t selfish. Even if others may believe that. We’ve just been strong for too long. I suffer from many things, but what makes me want to die is the nonstop chronic pain. I wrote my first post on here a couple days ago. Well I know this isn’t much but, sending a hug your way…. from one depressed mess to another <3
That’s beautiful, thank you for sharing. I’m sorry you’re feeling so down, although I doubt the sentiment helps at all. I hope you find some strength and solace as you battle with your pains, however long you endure them for.
when I really feel the urge to commit I try and think of the good things around me, about the people who would miss me if I were gone. If that doesn’t help then I usually watch movies that make me fangirl or something- anything to take my mind off my real life.
Couldn’t make it through work today. Had to leave early. Just couldn’t stop crying. I don’t want this existence. Why was i born? Ive always said my reason for sticking around is for the dogs but i don’t know anymore. I’m so tired of fighting, breathing, existing. Wish i could just get the courage and finally follow through. I’ve wanted it for 24 years. I fear failure as ive failed at many things in life and i couldn’t redeem myself from that. But one day…i know i will snap and something will push me to do it…i know this and always have.