I wish for once even for a bit… That someone truly cared enough to be there for me, emotionally. I don’t have any friends or family… I do but I don’t, really. No one gives a chit about me. Anytime I try to reach out for help… I get some bullcrap story about how they can’t talk.
I am always there for everyone when they need something but there’s no one there for me.
My life has turned into such chit. There’s never a happy moment in my life anymore and I’m getting tired of lying to myself about how things could get better tmrw if I just let all negativity go… If I shut my fkn mouth and take the abuse from others… Maybe it will end but after 30+ years of abuse… I know first hand, it never ends.
I got served divorce and custody papers on Valentine’s Day. I met his girlfriend after she let herself in our apt cause she was lead to believe I’m gone for good. He tried to play us both but I found out long before I met her that. Actually, I met her once before when I came to check on things and found them in my bed together… Him holding her which hurt cause he stopped holding me a year ago. I scared the chit out of her but she still continued to see him and believe his lies.
He constantly accuses me of seeing someone else the 2 months we were physically separated. He beats the crap out of me over something I didn’t do when he’s actually the one who had an affair.
I currently have broken ribs and I had to give up
90% of my pain meds to him because he broke his hand, punching the fridge after I left cause he had really hurt me physically and emotionally.
Why do I stay here? Got no family or friends to help me out of my situation.
I honestly and I even pray… (Want) to die.
I’ve tried several things to end my life but I’m still breathing… Just barely atm cause my ribs are broken.
I don’t want anything from anyone except for someone to listen and talk to me about anything and everything but I’m not good enough.
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Hey there, I’m sorry to hear to hear about your situation. I know how it feels to have nobody around that really understands and wants to help. I don’t really have any family around to be a support system for me. I have friend, but I’ve alienated most of them and rarely see the rest. Even though my friends are more like family to me than my actually family, I could not and would not burden them with my struggle. I’ve gained and lost family more times than I can count in my lifetime. I’m 33 divorced and have lovedand lost also more times than I can count… I know the feeling of feeling alone and unloved. I’ve tried to take my life also with no success a couple years ago. I’m back at that point in my life where I’m going to attempt to try again, I mean succeed… Well I feel your pain and I truly hope you find some relief and comfort in your life…
Would you want to make a net-friend? Someone to talk to and whatnot. Idk I really need someone to talk to.
I’m sorry I’m just seeing this.. I would but I’m not planning on sticking around any longer..
I hope you find someone to confide in though..
@SisterDisgrace Hey I am still here I haven’t been on the site in a while are you still here? Still need a friend?
Freaking shyt, why do you live such a shitty life when you deserve much better… I love you as a human and wish I could make your life heaven but how can I help you?
Sistermetalx @ Gmail. Need ppl to talk to and ppl that wanna talk.
I sent you an email. Have you received it?
My email is robertseitan90 @ gmail
I can relate to much things you told. If you want a online friend that has plenty of time to talk, you can always email me: stefan at deds.nl
I tried to email you. Hopefully it sent.
I’ve seen your email and sent you a reply, hope you got it but i think it’ll go allright.
I’ve sent you my first email again, if you still can’t read it please tell me.
I can not text you sorry, my phone provider doesn’t allow international texts. but you can:
install another mail app from google play or apple appstore on your phone
– create another emailaccount, not with gmail than it might work again
I can’t read anything anyone is emailing me. It’s frustrating as all hell. My day just keeps getting worse. You can text me if your in the US. Up to youse.
I’m in the netherlands, not in the us. So why don’t you install another mail app, or create an account with another mailprovider than gmail if gmail causes problems? you can also try to read you mail online in your browser, or install puffin browser from ap store if gmail needs flash support to work(i don’t think that’s needed).
I tried to email you at the new mailaddress you snet, hope you got it. otherwise please creae an account with hotmail or something else, if gmail causes you problems.
Keep tight, Sis. You’re not alone here
Why did you remove all your email addresses? if you want to reach me my mail is: stefan at deds.nl