Last post..

I’ve been struggling as if recent times. In reality I’ve been struggling for years, I’m just finally at another breaking point in my life. I wake up everyday trying to find a reason to live and carry on. It’s the most exhausting feeling when a part of yourself just wants to die, yet a part of you is trying to hold on for dear life. It’s the most tiring and undesirable way to constantly feel. I’m taking matters into my own hands and I’m not sorry, because it’s my choice and no one else’s. This is my choice and it’s become the only remedy for my struggle. This was an inevitable event in my life. I hate that this is what it came to and hate myself for it, but I’m relieved that my struggle and pain are ending.

Random Thoughts:

Life is not about about being right or wrong. Lifes not about opinions on who is right or wrong. Life is about fighting for what you believe, but being able to choose your battles..

We are all battling the chaos of the world, when we should be battling ther chaos inside of us.

When you close a door you should leave a window open. So you can always be able to look back at your life. Sometimes you have too look back so you can see that everything happened for a reason and find real closure.

When you reach the point in your life when you learn to remove the clutter from your mind and heart. The memories and the pain that consume you and make up a large part of who you are. Once it is let go or processed, it will leave you feeling empty. You will feel more alone than ever. You will have lost the only thing that was a constant in your heart and mind. Something that has been with you ever since you can remember. It is imperative that you surround yourself with positivity and make new memories to fill these parts of you that have become void. Like a bookself with empty spaces where books once took up space. They long to be fillled to support the remaining books to keep them all from falling. I recommend doing new things that are unknown to you. Whether it is traveling or just meeting new people or trying a new food. Or like you are doing now, reading this post/book. It is crucial that you do not let new horror stories into your bookshelf. It is better to be alone and reading a book or listening to music sometimes, than to be in a world so full of wrong turns and one ways sometimes. You just have to find your own perfect balance of “Yin” and “Yang” and draw a line and make sure you walk that line..