Resentment has eaten me up for years. It’s wearing me down to the point where I’m making lists in my head of people that need to be killed or myself killed. Something’s gotta give because one or the other is gonna happen.
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I hold a grudge until the end. Luckily I’ve only got 21 years of pent up resentment. I wonder if I will end up like you? Good luck, and maybe I’ll meet you there.
There are levels of grudges and resentment. If someone, by accident or unfortunate circumstances, does me a wrong I kind of shrug it off and get over it quickly. However…if someone starts with the intention of stealing or using me for their own end, that’s where it becomes an obsession. And if I let it simmer and stew in my mind long enough it’ll grow to massive proportions. So, like Peterson says, it’s best to speak up immediately to snip it in the bud.
Try not to beat yourself up over that knee-jerk reaction. Especially in a world where there are so many who fuck(or fucked)with other peoples lives so much they should die. The world would be a better place without them. Hell, maybe I’m one of them. When I was young I still don’t know what stopped me from climbing the clocktower to either jump or start taking people out with an automatic.
And as heartless as it sounds after 20 years in healthcare I’ve seen a lot of people who were such self absorbed destructive terrors I couldn’t believe that no one, especially some one in their own family, hadn’t killed them by now? I don’t advocate it but definitely understand the desire. Yes, its harmful to the mind to think that way often but once in awhile? Not so much. I turn it into a game. “How can I kill this piece of shit in the most humorous way? “
I know how bad it feels to be full of rage and resentment.
Maybe you could do something else with your resentment? Maybe it comes from not setting boundaries with people?
The thing is, you have a choice in how you deal with it. The future you envision is not inevitable, you can choose your actions. You can change how you deal with stimuli and the feelings they spark in you.
Truth. Ya, must stay aware and alert and not let the mind run into the muck. True
Good luck 🙂
That was an accidental comment. I wrote it and was just tapping my fingernail on the laptop and…….
There’s no way to delete or retract a comment on here is there? What’s up with that SP?
I’m not one who posts everything I write. I usually give myself a moment to go back and look how “off the wall” it is first. Now it looks like I’m a wannabe murder who used to work in healthcare LOL.
Sometimes, it’s possible. But as far as I can see, not for this post.
On the dashboard, it says “There are n comments in your spam queue right now.” You click on “n comments”. This takes you to the “Spam” comment tab. Navigate to the “All” tab. If your comment can be deleted, there will be a box you can tick beside it. Tick the box. Then in the dropdown menu “Bulk Actions”, select “Move to Trash”, and press “Apply”. Go to the trash tab, select your comment again, and apply the bulk action “Delete Permanently”.
But yeah, as I said, looks like it’s impossible for this post.
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Isn’t that a requirement of being a healthcare worker?
Question 1: a person just stole your bike. You; A. try to get it back, but don’t worry if you can’t. B. Report to the police and Find the person and have a conversation to find out why. C. Set a trap with another bike not locked to a fence. Be laying in the grass across the street with a long range sniper rifle to blow his brains all over the sidewalk.
Of course the correct answer is C. Congratulations! You’re now a healthcare worker.
@wallower Hey no worries, a lot of us have considered what you have written. But no truthfully neither you nor I could rid the world of any it’s toxic people. Would be so nice if they did not exist. Come to think of it the toxic self-absorbed destructive terrors are what drove many of us here in the first place.
I think the key difference is that most people probably fantasize about killing someone once in a while, but some people actually carry out the deed.
And that is what separates decent people from, well… unpleasant ones.
I do fantasize about being a Dexter though. Without all the gore. Providing a great public service with a smile.
Like I said. I prefer something more humorous. Like an exploding bicycle seat.
That’s perfect. That’ll work