Suicide date is set for the 8th September, the time when I get my bus pass, I’ll be heading right to the station and “catch my train.”
I wish I could come out with some meaningful posts, but lately my head is foggy.
I just can’t stop thinking that it’s going to be finite. That it’ll be over and I will cease to exist. That I’ll be doing this to myself. Can’t say I have the guts, I’m flooded with terror. But the sooner it’s over, the better.
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I hope you can find what you’re looking for
Yeah, a nice messy ending to this here misery. 🙂
The only thing is, I feel bad for the person who’s gonna have to scrap my flesh from the tracks… ick…
So you are going by train running over you? I have a train track near me and have frequently thought of using that strategy, but I thought a better strategy would be jumping off a very tall cliff about 70 miles from here. I can’t get a ride there until November so I thought I might walk 7 hours or fix my bike and try to ride.. probably be unsuccessful there.. but I’m kind of in a hurry and see any day as a viable time. Wondering if train works? I don’t want to fuck up their train and have it run off tracks or something or I don’t know if trains go fast enough to roll right over you or if it will just clonk clump over you and stop the train. Trains near me are old with very long tails. Not like the subway trains that are like bullets.
We have freight trains here, they never stop at the station and the ones nearby can go 70MPH! If one rushes by you, and that’s with you standing ON the platform, you can easily be swept off your feet!
@Username123 – got an email address? It’ll be interesting to chat sometime. 🙂
c h a t sometime goddamn censorship
I wish I could die in September. Unfortunately I have to alive to at least December. You’re lucky you get die so soon. Peace
Peace to you, John Doe.
Hope everything works out for you. Waiting will be difficult.
Don’t worry, I’ll tell you how it goes once I enter limbo! Haha! Waiting isn’t so bad, only frustrating. Least I get to see how many things I can get up to within such a short time frame.
You’re patient…true – you can do whatever you want now. Sleep 24 hours a day if you like too! Don’t get arrested though- that could be a spanner in the works.
Getting arrested is out of the question, so no worries. Also sleeping for 24 hours a day? I’ve done it twice this week! How about we raise this up to 48 hours instead?
I will up that raise and then call.
Show your hands, mate1
4 aces.
Guy interns that the end is nears and kills the young man.
What the Heck?
Good news then.
Sleeping for 24/48/96/ever would be bliss. One day…
Isn’t there a single day in your life where you can happily shut your eyes for 24 hours..? Surely there must be someway for you to accomplish this.
I guess drinking/drugs could accomplish that but I don’t indulge so….
I have trouble sleeping for more than 5…I woul LOVE to sleep for 24. Also, sushi.
I take the train to school every day, and every time I think of jumping. But I just keep thinking, what if it goes wrong? And just my legs get cut off or something. I need something that ensures my death.
Becoming maimed or paralyzed etc. would not be an ideal outcome.
unsure where you are, but i’m a traveler at heart. i get around, and i mean that in the best way possible. if i happen to be at that station, i will notice you, and will strike up a conversation with you, and you’ll forget what you even had planned that day.
Remember, the 8th. You’ll find me on that day.
what a messy way to go out. can you imagine? you’re about to catch a train, to god knows where, maybe to start a new life someplace new, or to see a loved one you haven’t seen in a long time, or to pursue an exciting project, and on your way to this beautiful destination, some guy decides to jump in front of a train. that sure would fuck my day up. i’d probably never be the same after that. especially with that horrific imagery. check out pics on best gore if you haven’t already. sloppy.
It is sloppy, but the station itself is usually empty, it’s in the middle of nowhere.
I’ll even make sure to stand over in the furthest corner of the platform for everyone’s benefit.
Can’t imagine anything else being so quick and successful.
I deserve to be dead.
You may be noticed by staff. Also, the driver is probably going to be seriously affected. Sorry but something to consider.
There’s no CCTV, no ticket office (all you got is this little machine) and no security gates.
It literally is just a couple of benches, a subway going towards the platform and no facilities.
You have no reason to apologise, I’m aware of how heinous this method is.
How are you doing? Haven’t heard from you here for a while…