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My landlady keeps finding excuses to make me interact with her daughter. No Mrs., it’s not going to work. I can see it all in her expressions, her hurry. And I feel disgusted. She shouldn’t waste her true emotions on me. I feel embarrassed. I’m just not made for this world. You, your daughter, your world is so, so, so far away from me. You don’t touch anywhere. And in these interactions I realize just how far away and different I am or am becoming from everybody. I wonder what will happen to me if I snap all ties from world, i.e. from my immediate family and whatever few friends I have.