Do you ever just wish you had some kind of disease that would eventually, somehow or another kill you? I know it’s sick to say, and sick to idolize it but saying that you’re going to die from like cancer or something sounds so much nicer than someone who says that they are going to kill themselves. Now i’m sure that most people who are terminally ill, don’t want to die. But I can also say that I as someone who has depression and is suicidal, I don’t want to die either. But at the same time I do. Depression is like an endless disease that tortures your brain every single day. Whereas an illness, just destroys your body within, it’s unavoidable in most cases. Why is depression not treated similar? Why is it when our brains tell us to kill ourselves and that we don’t deserve life, we are just “dramatic” and “attention seeking” but watch out, if we actually pull it off and DIE… We were such a great person, no one saw this coming… there were no signs.
A load of bullshit.
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I wish people would consider mental illness the same as other terminal illness. To me, and I’m sure many others, my mental illness is terminal. It’s like a death sentence with an indefinite expiration date.
I find it so unfortunate that those with cancer or other deadly illnesses are the ones who don’t want to die. It is sickening to say but I would do anything to be in their place because people give so much more sympathy and compassion to those people rather than suicides.
As a child I would use birthday wishes while blowing out candles to wish “to get leukemia and die from
It soon or just die suddenly” I had just learned of cancer and it sounded like a perfect disease to get to die and end my suffering. I was around 9,10,11.i kept wishing until 14 or something until wishes became too childish.
That’s exactly what I wish for every single year.
Yeah it doesn’t work. Sadly! You have to hurt yourself on force. You have to forcefully hurt yourself to get out of this life. You have to ingest poison. You have to hurt yourself to get out of this life. You can’t just wish. You have to go out and end if that is what you want.
And when it is the thing you want is to die than you have to make it happen.
This is what I’ve been doing. Slamming my head on wall. It kills my brain slowly and I smoke everyday so I can kill my brain. But when I go in for the final kill I will probably slit my throat or jump off cliff
I know I was never supposed to be born so I have to end my life I was never meant to be born.
I have had tumors and had several procedures done in my body. I always wished it gets worse and I die out of it. But it just got complicated with several other side effects and I’m still alive.
My grandmother died from cancer a year ago and since then, I haven’t had these thoughts of wanting that disease. I watched her wither away to nothing with her cancer and she was clearly embarrassed to have people around her watching her turn to skin and bones.
I do not want cancer and wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Same as I wouldn’t wish mental illness on anyone. I’d rather just take myself out if it comes to that. Having people stare at you while you rot away from cancer in the hospital or at home is not what I want. Plus, people feel obligated to take care of you. No, it would be easier just to kill yourself and get it over with.
As much as I want to die, I’ve never wished for a terminal disease or an axe murderer to do me in. You’d think it doesn’t make any sense, but I figured out why I think this way. Suicide is my way of saying FU to the world. If cancer kills me, that’s the world saying FU to me. I really want to go out on my own terms, the time, place and means I choose. I know it won’t make a difference when I’m in the ground, but it’ll make a difference for those few seconds of my death, and those seconds will probably be the most meaningful thing I’ve done with my life.
Yeah. Ive certainly had that thought