Having encountered major disappointments in those around me over and over again, I have come to the conclusion that everybody is prepared to do anything to advance their own agenda. When the right buttons are pressed everybody turns into a monster.
Of course my communications skills aren’t that great, so I end up pressing those buttons and lo and behold, somebody turns into a monster willing to fuck me over in one way or the other.
Why would I even care about humanity? They cannot be trusted with anything. Why the hell would I even bother living when the only purpose of reality seems to be to cause suffering?
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I guess you just have to despise humanity for what it is and try to be the best person you can. If you can show you’re better than all that, it should make other people improve too.
Yup, I’ve lost faith in humanity too. No amount of people saying “but humans are great” is going to change my mind. I see too many sh*tty people around me.
The hardest challenge for me is to resist not becoming infected by it. There is so much of it(severe self-absorption, manipulation, delusion, lying etc)around us that it’s so easy to become that way. For me anyways. And the confusion of so many that are lying to themselves as to it’s ok that they are fucking you over or “hey everyone does it” can make you feel like the whole world’s gone mad. Friends that really aren’t friends. They really don’t wish you well. You in crisis or down in the dumps is where they want you for whatever sick reason. Always there to point out the negative in any new endeavor you are doing or rain on your parade if you’re feeling good. “Crash and burn so I can feel better about my self and my life and that I’ve really got my shit together”. Like some vampiric reality show. It’s hard for me to not wish bad things upon the many people around me who are like this. I feel guilty when I see them get burned and I enjoy it. I also feel like it’s futile because they won’t learn anything from it. It won’t make them more human. This is why I’m so disconnected from everyone and those occasional periods of severe loneliness(which I cure by going out and spending time amongst “them”).
Someone once told me that “humanity is in it’s early years, and so right now cultures as a whole are acting like teenagers. They’re immature and self absorbed.” But he still had faith in humanity, because he said that “maybe in a few thousand more years, people will have changed.”
I dunno. Seems like different people think different things to try and convince themselves to have hope for the future.
No idea if this would interest or bore you, but have you heard of the Cosmic Calendar? It’s the history of the universe, fit into a one year period, and it offers a cool perspective on the amount of time humans occupy in the big picture of the universe. If there’s hope for humanity, it’s still a few “weeks” away, at best.
I think it’s safe to say that there are plenty of creatures greater than humans, and most people you meet are going to cause you hurt in some way. But there are good people out there, I understand that’s hard to see sometimes. I think sometimes you just have to accept that you’re feeling low/ depressed and hope for better days. They will come
We’re a bunch of primitive apes that have learned how to make jet fuel and split atoms. Of course it’s going to be a messy story going forward, but hopefully we’ll learn in time. But that means you’re also a primitive ape, and so am I. The only response to seeing inhumanity in man is to strive to be the best primitive ape you can be, according to your own standards, and let other apes figure it out for themselves along the way.