September 25th, 2017 by Eccedentesiastsoul

5 days ago I lost 136 days of being clean of cutting. It might seem like nothing but it took all of me to get past those 136 days. When I broke them it wasn’t like always. Right now, I feel so shitty about myself and I’m in a really bad place. I got through the last school year taking vitamin supplements because the doctor told me to do so. I stopped them about 2-3 months ago and for the past week I’ve been feeling so down and tired all the time. Last night, I slept for the longest I have ever slept since school started (7 hours). I slept through the night which was a first and I still couldn’t wake up. When I did wake up though it felt as if I haven’t slept at all. Through the day, I was so tired and I couldn’t concentrate or focus in school. I’m really disappointed in myself as I came back from school and stayed in bed ever since. School work is taking up all my time and I still have to deal with my mom. I don’t talk to her at the moment and it’s just so bad. I’m slowly breaking down. Also, everyone around me has been telling me I have OCD and I don’t know how to feel about that. I mean, one more thing to add to the list, right? So much is going on and I really want to get it all out but I can’t because I barley have time to breathe.

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