Hello, this is my first post on here.
Basically I just wanted to talk about how I feel. I’ve been feeling just empty and sad, for example every time I laugh I feel like it just drains out in seconds. I also wanted to say i may not be depressed or sad as anyone else out there but I’d like to know what’s keeping you from ending your life. Also I just remembered, I don’t feel comfortable in my own body. It irritates me knowing I still have to live through this good awful life where every where I go people argue, judge, and believe in themselves to much. That’s all I got now but maybe someone out there will read it and tell me what there is to do.
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The main reason that keeps me from ending my life is my family, because the thought of hurting them and the image in my mind of them crying for me is unbearable. The second thing is that there’s no easy non-scary way to go in my reach, and I try to keep the means I need for that as far away from me as possible, so that when those moments come it’s as hard and frightening for me as possible.
What you said about laughing feels the same way for me. Sometimes I genuinely break out laughing over something funny, like a joke I read online or a funny part in Family Guy or Last Week Tonight, but after just a few seconds I remember about my life and my problems for whatever reason, and then it just flips to the exact opposite.
What is there to do? Honestly, if anyone here knew, they likely wouldn’t be in this place. There’s always hope that things might turn around some day, no matter how small, so maybe you’re lucky and strike gold one day, or maybe you’re not and this is all that this life has in place for you. In the end all that matters is that you look forward, keep going and try to cope as best as you can.