im such a liar…such a coward…such a fool…i keep trying to pretend…and i sux at it so bad…people are relying on me…and i just keep failing…if they could see behind my facade…theyd just laugh…n give me that look…n turn away…n wish theyd never met me…i cant blame them…i feel the same way about me every other day…
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I’m there now, only a dad. I completely understand wanting to disappear. I think about it everyday.
But I don’t think they’d laugh. You’re looking at yourself through their eyes, with your perspective. You can’t assume how they will respond to you. I’ve made that mistake too many times to know it to be true.
I have to ask myself if what I’m experiencing is reality, or if I’m making up the scenario and Everyone’s reactions.
Please don’t. I’d cry so hard if my mom killed herself.
My mom is the only reason I haven’t killed myself yet, you’re more important to your family than you might realize.
I get it. You’re totally allowed to feel like that. But the responsibility is too great, children need you, family needs you, and the burden will be heavier if you go. Even fuckloads of insurance money don’t erase memories of arranging advanced directives.
I hate 2017
I never heard anyone say wow i am happy my parent is dead. A big part of why i want to go is i want to be with my mother. She is in my dreams constantly. I am crazy but its probably even more crazier of me to say i think she is the one from stopping me and making my attemps fail. Do not leave your kids. Please do not. My life is empty without her. I go through the motions of life but i am already dead since the day i seen her last breath.