i want to cut up my entire body and watch the blood spill onto the floor.
how long before i push him away? when will his patience finally run out? when will he finally get sick and tired of my mental illnesses and relentless negativity and leave me?
please leave me. everyone, leave me alone. i need to be alone so i can die.
i’m so sorry i still exist.
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Don’t be sorry baby. I am sorry to hear you going through this type of pain, whoever he is sounds like he’s still there beside you. Does he understand how you feel ? Does he know what your experiencing can’t be turned off by a switch ? What he do if you didn’t exist ? How much pain would he feel ? Please don’t hurt yourself, your body is too precious for that . I am sorry your mind is not being so kind to you but don’t let it defeat you. Keep strong, there are many people you could help who feel the same