I’ve never had a birthday party.
I’ve never went trick-or-treating.
I’ve never had an Easter egg hunt.
I’ve never had a Christmas tree or had presents underneath a tree.
I’ve never had a “tooth fairy” put anything under my pillows.
Simple little things above I’ve never had.
I am now in my mid-30s.
I’ve never had a childhood.
I’ve never known happiness.
I’ve never known love.
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I’m sorry to hear. So why don’t you create happiness for yourself ? Yes sounds very overwhelming I know but you what being a captive of your past negative situations hunny will never free you. You have had the courage to write how you feel on this blog so make this the day of change. Explore yourself, what makes you happy or smile ? Christmas is coming up, instead of dwelling on past failures how can you change it this year ?? Buy a tree ? Buy yourself a present ?give to the homeless? ? Change your future baby and choose the light, it’s hard but it’s acheviable
Shit, son. We should do some of those things.
My parents were not safe to be around and were very toxic. I had all five of the things you mention (except tooth fairy). Because they did it just to give a pretense of being normal parents, I now avoid even being around when others do this stuff. But to think that your parents could not even bother to go through the motions must hurt plenty.
Nope, they sure didn’t even bother going through the motions. Doing that would mean they actually cared. They’ve openly told me they didn’t want me. Starting at the age of 7. So it’s not like I did anything to deserve it. Just happened to be born the wrong gender and born in the wrong damn family.
My father told me over and over “None of you kids was an accident”. Maybe so, but we were all a tragedy. Your parents took this to a whole new level.
at least your parents lied to you (presumably) to make you guys feel better. Mine intentionally said those things to intentionally hurt me. Annnd people wonder why I hate humans and want the world to end.
World ending would be great. Humans are way too self centered.
My guess is the birth control was working when it was supposed to was what he meant. Such thorough planning for children is just amazing isn’t it? (sarcasm so intended) We kids knew deep down our value lie in being something they could overwhelm.
Your parents sound like they where excusing themselves from the very duty they assumed by keeping you. That is pathetic.
I made the grave mistake of being born the wrong gender. And they were not very happy about that. They’ve hated me since the day I was born. Literally.
Trust me you didn’t miss out on much. You’re probably more resilient and do not have affluenza like those of us spoiled bratts who did. Life doesn’t owe us loving parents. BUT, we owe ourselves to be better than the last generation and to try to be happy.
You’re here now, and you’re about to change the rest of your life. You can get a second chance by being an AWESOME parent yourself. Or you can choose to do something else. Childhood was your parents creating an easel. Adulthood gives you the power to paint.
I don’t give a shit about resiliency, or about how pain builds “character.” Fuck that. I’d rather not have been abused and be broken mentally.
Affluenza? Hmff, I’d rather be a spoilt rich little shit than a poor fucker who’ve been shit on their entire lives. I’ll take that money and go far far away. Travel, eat, sleep, repeat.
I owe it to myself to try to be happy? Like I haven’t fucking tried to my ENTIRE life?
Sorry if I sound angry, but I am. And fuck it all.