I came to some conclusions just about now. I guess it’s just the old usual ones. Worthless, ugly, all of my friends should leave me, abandon me. I don’t deserve them, they are too good for me. I should just be left alone lmao. I also really want to self harm, really fucking bad. It’s been so long ago, I miss the touch, the feeling and tbh the pain. But I am scared people will notice and question it, and then like idk leave me, but honestly maybe that would be an easier way. I just want to do something to myself
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You think your friends are too good for you?
Shit, you must live in a nice place
Cause I haven’t met anyone worth a damn around where I live or where I’ve been.
I think what the person above me is trying to say, is that people are people. There’s nothing special about any of them. They’re just trying not to fail as much as we are. I think the difference between us and them is that thing called ego. They use it to build themselves up, where we use it against ourselves. We make ourselves feel worthless, which makes them look like they’re worth more. Ifs a funny thing, how our perseptions mold our world.
Can I ask you a question or two? Do you live in an urban or a suburban?
Do you miss the knife and the pain, or are you just looking to feel something other than the emptiness?
don’t think about what happen when they leave, rather what would happen when they stay?