Reproducing – no child deserves that from me. Overspending – the long term consequences are serious. First and second marriages – turns out thinking it was all their fault was only half right. Not offing myself before entwining my self with others. Now I am stuck.
Me too, even though it almost always inadvertent and I don’t know what to do. Remember: normal life is HARD for people with depression, even though it’s important to realise when we can that we can never totally live in a vacuum (as much as we often want to!) and that our actions still affect others, even when our judgment is impaired and our ability to function is reduced.
Not making a bigger effort to make friends in my first school. Spending every day at school isolated, miserable and just trying to get through the day unnoticed for eight years really messed me up, and at this point I don’t even know what to do with friends. I’ve spent so long alone that I like it now and anything else just freaks me out.
I’ve had a similar experience. I’ve got used to being alone (and I mean alone), and stagnant, and unchallenged, because I can’t cope with my MH plus the ups and downs and pain of friendship. I have one amazing friend, though, that means the world to me. I really hope you have someone too.
Not killing myself several years ago. That was when I KNEW. When I knew that, basically, I had these combinations of fundamental differences that just meant that life in this society would never be worth living for me.
But it will happen. Even if I can’t push myself to make the plunge yet, and have to wait until I’m ready enough to stop procrastinating (sounds ironic, I know). My mind needs to be clear enough to properly plan what I’m doing.
I spent all of high school and most of college chasing the wrong girls. Wasting my time on ones who wanted nothing to do with me when there were several right in front of me the whole time who liked me and I was too dumb to see.
There was a period of time where I tried cutting off from several of my best friends completely and I think it ended up pushing them into some unhealthy habits. And when I see them nowadays and they’re ruining themselves, I feel partially to blame.
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Reproducing – no child deserves that from me. Overspending – the long term consequences are serious. First and second marriages – turns out thinking it was all their fault was only half right. Not offing myself before entwining my self with others. Now I am stuck.
Just to be clear- my fault, not the child’s.
Using other people as a crutch to help my depression. Then the far opposite of isolating myself from everyone.
Me too, even though it almost always inadvertent and I don’t know what to do. Remember: normal life is HARD for people with depression, even though it’s important to realise when we can that we can never totally live in a vacuum (as much as we often want to!) and that our actions still affect others, even when our judgment is impaired and our ability to function is reduced.
Breathing and living
Not killing myself years ago
I’ve got to go ditto to user unknown. I remembered I’m still homeless or in pedo land until I end my life.
I once had a chance to kill myself and I didn’t
When I listened to someone else, followed their advice, when I felt in my guts, that I should do otherwise.
As usual, you never answer the questions that you ask
Not making a bigger effort to make friends in my first school. Spending every day at school isolated, miserable and just trying to get through the day unnoticed for eight years really messed me up, and at this point I don’t even know what to do with friends. I’ve spent so long alone that I like it now and anything else just freaks me out.
I’ve had a similar experience. I’ve got used to being alone (and I mean alone), and stagnant, and unchallenged, because I can’t cope with my MH plus the ups and downs and pain of friendship. I have one amazing friend, though, that means the world to me. I really hope you have someone too.
Marriage with the wrong person. It screws up your life.
Not killing myself several years ago. That was when I KNEW. When I knew that, basically, I had these combinations of fundamental differences that just meant that life in this society would never be worth living for me.
But it will happen. Even if I can’t push myself to make the plunge yet, and have to wait until I’m ready enough to stop procrastinating (sounds ironic, I know). My mind needs to be clear enough to properly plan what I’m doing.
I spent all of high school and most of college chasing the wrong girls. Wasting my time on ones who wanted nothing to do with me when there were several right in front of me the whole time who liked me and I was too dumb to see.
There was a period of time where I tried cutting off from several of my best friends completely and I think it ended up pushing them into some unhealthy habits. And when I see them nowadays and they’re ruining themselves, I feel partially to blame.