Everyone hates you, Katrina. They all hate your fucking guts and they would hurt you if they could. Every one of them. The only people who don’t hate you don’t know you, and anyone who says that they don’t hate you is lying to you.
Am I just projecting? Maybe I’m just projecting. Maybe I just hate myself so much that I can’t help but think that everyone else does too.
How do I make it stop?
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I don’t hate you though. In fact, I really like you (which you should probably take as an insult seeing as I am what I am).
As per usual though, I don’t have an answer to your question. Sorry Kat.
Well, I don’t take it as an insult. And don’t worry. That’s fine.
I was gonna say, I think I have read most of your posts here for maybe six months and you are ok by me. Self hate is quite a thing and I guess a lot of us have it here.
Self-hate seems to be the sun that every aspect of my personality orbits around.
I googled self hate and I see I have been engaged in it far more than I had thought. We come by honestly around here.
*it*
I don’t hate you though. You seem to be conscentious and self-aware of your surroundings. Most people I know lack a conscience or self-awareness and would purposely try to exploit or destroy other human beings without any remorse at all. Funny how the good people are the ones who tend to lose everything while the sociopaths/psychopaths win.
Most people you know lack consciences? That’s very concerning.
Anyway, don’t be fooled, I’m not good. Just pretty good at tricking people into thinking I am, apparently.
Considering the things that they can do and do so without remorse, you can only come to the conclusion that they really have no conscience. If they can destroy lives easily and do so with glee and seem to take great joy in it, then you can only conclude that to be the case.
Anyway, I don’t really know you well enough personally but seeing your posts here, I really doubt you to be the bad person you claim. You feel bad about certain things and events in your life and you seem to loathe yourself because of it. A good person would feel repentance and remorse over what they’ve done – either to themselves or other people. A bad person would find nothing wrong with his actions even if he hurts other people.
It seems to me that you’re just too hard on yourself. I hate to say it but people can sense this and will view this as a “weakness” (take note I say weakness with quotation marks. I don’t see this as weakness. In fact, it takes strength to be introspective and have a sense of ethics and morality) on your part. They can then strike at this core “weakness” of yours so you do their bidding and if you fail to do it, then they will use it against you so you feel bad about yourself.
Same here, that doesn’t really bother me, because even if I was a non-psychopathic perfect person people would still hate me lol. So I count my blessings and move on. People’s opinions cannot affect you. YOUR ACTIONS CAN. What do people see in you that they hate? Find it and change it over the course of time. This is all about self improvement. Also when did you get payed based on people’s opinions about you?
I think they hate *every* part of me.
Good, now one less thing to worry about. Find your strengths and love on to greatness. LET IT GO.
“I think they hate *every* part of me.”
My apologies because I laughed at this.
They hate every part of you? Have you shown them any real part of you or just your mask?
How long do you think it would take to see and know every major part of you?
Granted most people are zombies: unaware and can’t even see the difference but even though I am just in and out of here, I haven’t read anything from you yet that struck me as real/authentic.
It is my opinion -feel free to discard it- that we are on the surface, the domain of the superficial.
You can’t hate what you don’t know or what you are mentally unable to appreciate. Sure, you could sense it even if you haven’t seen it but it’s difficult to hate what you haven’t seen.
You haven’t read anything here from me that struck you as real or authentic? That’s weird, because this is the place that I am at my most authentic.
Of course, there are some things that I don’t talk about even on here, but for the most part, I’m pretty transparent on SP.
As matter of fact I hate forced/expected transparency. Each person has the right to be as transparent as they want to be.
I don’t need to know anything that a person does not willingly chose to tell me.
I don’t ask -intrusive- questions.
Maybe I didn’t convey my idea very well. I mean’t that there was nothing gripping or particularly unique that gave me a sense of who you are beyond the surface and generic stuff, which is pretty rare.
The way I see it, without those things that give a sense of who you are, nobody can really know you. As a result, they can’t really hate You. They can react in a hateful / hostile manner but its about their own weaknesses and insecurities; not about you.
People don’t even like them selves, don’t sell their approval.
Sorry, but I have to disagree here. That’s just your depression/self-loathing talking and projecting it to the rest of humanity. Most people LOVE themselves. In fact, they love themselves to death that they would do do anything just to protect their egos and reputation, so much so that they would willingly attack anyone aggressively just to protect their reputations and image. That’s what normal people do. I hate to say it but we are the minority, the freaks, the outliers and the exception.
A while ago I saw this tweet, here it is:
“my mentor asked me “would you be friends with people who spoke to you the way you speak to yourself?” and I was fucked up for 30 minutes”
I saw it and realized that I was my own worst enemy, because no one has ever treated me as badly as I treat myself. The way that you speak about yourself right now, the fact that you believe you are incapable of being loved or accepted or even liked, that is your self-hate talking. There are over 7 billion people on earth right now, all different and I promise you, who ever you are, they would not ALL hate you.
My advice is learn to treat yourself better.
Stop that right now. Unless you helped invent the atomic bomb, you’re not a bad person. And even if you did, you’d probably have done it for good reasons that were subverted by those assholes in the military. And those military assholes were probably just trying to stop a war by blowing something up (even after having firebombed every major city in the enemy’s country and bringing their government to its knees). And that might actually be unforgivable and stupid.
To sum up here, I don’t hate you.