Maybe you should not kill yourself since you are not sure you want to die. Suicide is for only for people who are sure they are ready to end their lives. It’s a big decision to make in your life. If you are not ready, I think you should cancel your plans, until you are 100% sure
You know all weekend especially yesterday I was just searching for that lust that moment inside me which would give me the strength to do it and OMG I find it so difficult I think it’s not very hard for me to go to my location it’s just very very difficult to execute the method that I have especially since I have such a crazy anxiety all day yesterday for some reason I don’t have it right now. I don’t know what’s going on in my mind so many things it’s like where I’m going to go and when I’m here I’m like thinking okay I want to enjoy this one last time okay I want to get that coffee or I want to eat this kind of food cuz I’m not sure if I’ll be able to eat this again you know all these excuses and I know that I have to go I know it’s time to go I know there’s no way next year is going to come good for me but at the same time there’s a there’s that fear and it comes and goes sometimes I don’t have it sometimes I do but I know it’s time to go not sure if you’re feeling the same way but I thought I’d share that I’m struggling heavily as well you seem like a nice person and I feel bad I really hope that you find a solution
I feel the same, you took the words out of my mouth. I also get sad when I think of all the things I won’t be able to do, taste or see. But it’s ok, I have to do this. You’re also a really nice person, I’m sorry you have to suffer, I wish you best of luck in whatever you’re doing right now (:
Oh I’m definitely ready & I know it’s the right thing to do in my situation. I’m 26 with a $80K+ debt. Handsome but I’ve been single my whole life. My family has used/abused me for most of my life this is only a 1/4 of my story others have it worse but mine is just as bad. My mom her betrayal & lies my kindness & trust! I won’t allow myself to myself to deal with this loneliness any longer
it’s so unnatural. i mean, yeah, i thought about death even before i was suicidal. but it wasn’t different then. now, it’s more a means of relief and escape of this nightmarish existence. but speaking of death in such a manner, to me, is disturbing in itself, as none of us knows what comes next. for it may be nothing or an entirely different kind of existence.
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I don’t know if I should do it
Maybe you should not kill yourself since you are not sure you want to die. Suicide is for only for people who are sure they are ready to end their lives. It’s a big decision to make in your life. If you are not ready, I think you should cancel your plans, until you are 100% sure
I dont know, I really feel this world has nothing left for me. I wish I could be different. If I don’t do it today I’ll do it tomorrow.
You know all weekend especially yesterday I was just searching for that lust that moment inside me which would give me the strength to do it and OMG I find it so difficult I think it’s not very hard for me to go to my location it’s just very very difficult to execute the method that I have especially since I have such a crazy anxiety all day yesterday for some reason I don’t have it right now. I don’t know what’s going on in my mind so many things it’s like where I’m going to go and when I’m here I’m like thinking okay I want to enjoy this one last time okay I want to get that coffee or I want to eat this kind of food cuz I’m not sure if I’ll be able to eat this again you know all these excuses and I know that I have to go I know it’s time to go I know there’s no way next year is going to come good for me but at the same time there’s a there’s that fear and it comes and goes sometimes I don’t have it sometimes I do but I know it’s time to go not sure if you’re feeling the same way but I thought I’d share that I’m struggling heavily as well you seem like a nice person and I feel bad I really hope that you find a solution
I feel the same, you took the words out of my mouth. I also get sad when I think of all the things I won’t be able to do, taste or see. But it’s ok, I have to do this. You’re also a really nice person, I’m sorry you have to suffer, I wish you best of luck in whatever you’re doing right now (:
Don’t do it if you are not ready. Why do you want to kill yourself?
Oh I’m definitely ready & I know it’s the right thing to do in my situation. I’m 26 with a $80K+ debt. Handsome but I’ve been single my whole life. My family has used/abused me for most of my life this is only a 1/4 of my story others have it worse but mine is just as bad. My mom her betrayal & lies my kindness & trust! I won’t allow myself to myself to deal with this loneliness any longer
I have to, I ran out of time. This world has nothing left for me.
i’m amazed at how we all so casually speak of death.
Death is on my mind 24/7
Same with me
Well, we are on a suicide forum.
it’s so unnatural. i mean, yeah, i thought about death even before i was suicidal. but it wasn’t different then. now, it’s more a means of relief and escape of this nightmarish existence. but speaking of death in such a manner, to me, is disturbing in itself, as none of us knows what comes next. for it may be nothing or an entirely different kind of existence.
For me it’s relieving. You can’t talk of these things in the real world. It’s nice to be able to do it here.
I read about this phenomena of casually speaking about our dying. It is how it is with us.