Is there anybody on SP who has a ‘normal’ and happy life, but has an extreme desire to be dead (without a known reason). I have always found this fascinating
I have a normal and happy life according to outsiders. Many people would be jealous of my life. I live off the grid in a beautiful place on a farm full of animals that overlook the ocean. I have a job and make good money. I mainly just go fishing in the weekend sit at the beach and get drunk with my dogs. Lots of people envy my lifestyle and think I don’t have a care in the world. I have been through alot though but that is not the reason I want to die. I can deal with that.
What I can’t deal with is being lonely. I can’t be alone anymore but neither can I let anyone into my world. I even tried being with another girl but it’s just not me. I want a man but they are all rough and fukd up around here. I have come to the conclusion I’m never going to have someone to share my life with. Everyone needs a mate without love I am nothing and truly want to die. It shouldn’t be hard though I smoke like a chimney and drink like a fish. My lungs are fucked and my liver must have incredible damage. I’m 34 so I reckon i should be dead by the time I’m 40. It’s a win win situation it wouldn’t be deemed as suicide.
Wow so it’s true after all. I just pictured myself in your shoes I figured I’d still be depressed even if I was financially set. I know I’d still be alone and if I showed off to people they would only be following me for interest not for me. Still what a peaceful way to go I’m sure your beautiful and I’m sure there is a mate who isn’t an asshole over there
It sounds so pathetic though, but its true.
Thanks for assuming I’m beautiful but I’m not I’m just me.
I have seen you though and you are a very handsome young man with a heart of gold helping your family. It’s funny people will never know what they got till it’s gone.
Wow. You live near the ocean, you’ve got dogs, you fish, and you smoke and drink on a regular basis.
Yep, your life is perfect. (Please tell me you’re a musician too).
You sound like you’re living the dream. Wanna trade places?
No I drink on a daily basis and wish I was a musician. I can’t play no instruments i just love singing.
Don’t know if I would trade place? Unless you were a truck driver who got to travel around, stay in motels, frequent bars and eat tasty food everyday. Haha this is how my stalking of your every words has lead me to imagine who you are what you do.
Well, I’m sure you know that people often misrepresent who they really are online. Perhaps everything I’ve revealed about myself has been a carefully orchestrated facade, and maybe I’m really a bot who’s figured out how to “prove his humanity” by solving simple math problems when logging on to this site.
Maybe I’m an alien, a reptilian shapeshifter surreptitiously observing humanity and life all across the cosmos. I guess we’ll never know.
Thanks for the virtual beer and the smoke, ‘preciate it.
Sure, I have a “normal and happy life.” A mom and a dad and schooling and team sports and a home. No job and no college though. I never went to college because I was suicidal and hoping to be dead by 18, which was 3 months after graduation. I almost didn’t graduate because I had planned my suicide already. So graduating or not did not make a difference. Oh and I’ve been arrested for smoking marijuana 3 times (2016) And I’m 23 years old and in order to move out of my parents house I have to be homeless after my probation ends (homeless is no questions about it better than staying with them) I aim for the mountains when I go homeless
I just hope I don’t run into any rapists or creep asses along the way. *avert eye contact, avert eye contact, avert eye contact*
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Great question but impossible for me to answer hahaha caught my attention though
I have a normal and happy life according to outsiders. Many people would be jealous of my life. I live off the grid in a beautiful place on a farm full of animals that overlook the ocean. I have a job and make good money. I mainly just go fishing in the weekend sit at the beach and get drunk with my dogs. Lots of people envy my lifestyle and think I don’t have a care in the world. I have been through alot though but that is not the reason I want to die. I can deal with that.
What I can’t deal with is being lonely. I can’t be alone anymore but neither can I let anyone into my world. I even tried being with another girl but it’s just not me. I want a man but they are all rough and fukd up around here. I have come to the conclusion I’m never going to have someone to share my life with. Everyone needs a mate without love I am nothing and truly want to die. It shouldn’t be hard though I smoke like a chimney and drink like a fish. My lungs are fucked and my liver must have incredible damage. I’m 34 so I reckon i should be dead by the time I’m 40. It’s a win win situation it wouldn’t be deemed as suicide.
Wow so it’s true after all. I just pictured myself in your shoes I figured I’d still be depressed even if I was financially set. I know I’d still be alone and if I showed off to people they would only be following me for interest not for me. Still what a peaceful way to go I’m sure your beautiful and I’m sure there is a mate who isn’t an asshole over there
It sounds so pathetic though, but its true.
Thanks for assuming I’m beautiful but I’m not I’m just me.
I have seen you though and you are a very handsome young man with a heart of gold helping your family. It’s funny people will never know what they got till it’s gone.
Try christianmingle.con
No I’d never go on any dating site. Thanks for the suggestion though 🙂
Wow. You live near the ocean, you’ve got dogs, you fish, and you smoke and drink on a regular basis.
Yep, your life is perfect. (Please tell me you’re a musician too).
You sound like you’re living the dream. Wanna trade places?
No I drink on a daily basis and wish I was a musician. I can’t play no instruments i just love singing.
Don’t know if I would trade place? Unless you were a truck driver who got to travel around, stay in motels, frequent bars and eat tasty food everyday. Haha this is how my stalking of your every words has lead me to imagine who you are what you do.
Here hes a Heineken and a cigarette.
Well, I’m sure you know that people often misrepresent who they really are online. Perhaps everything I’ve revealed about myself has been a carefully orchestrated facade, and maybe I’m really a bot who’s figured out how to “prove his humanity” by solving simple math problems when logging on to this site.
Maybe I’m an alien, a reptilian shapeshifter surreptitiously observing humanity and life all across the cosmos. I guess we’ll never know.
Thanks for the virtual beer and the smoke, ‘preciate it.
Sure, I have a “normal and happy life.” A mom and a dad and schooling and team sports and a home. No job and no college though. I never went to college because I was suicidal and hoping to be dead by 18, which was 3 months after graduation. I almost didn’t graduate because I had planned my suicide already. So graduating or not did not make a difference. Oh and I’ve been arrested for smoking marijuana 3 times (2016) And I’m 23 years old and in order to move out of my parents house I have to be homeless after my probation ends (homeless is no questions about it better than staying with them) I aim for the mountains when I go homeless
I just hope I don’t run into any rapists or creep asses along the way. *avert eye contact, avert eye contact, avert eye contact*