To add insult to injury,
The person I said goodbye to – turned out to be a snake… I seem to be awfully good at finding nothing but snakes… He turned on me – bit me – made me bleed… all for his own pleasure… all at my expense. I have only one friend – and told him what happened – my friend explained to me that these snakes seek people like me out, and that I should not blame myself for what happened…
But I feel so much more broken than I already was.. and I didn’t even think that was possible. Now.. I just want what I did before all of this… to die…and to die quickly. Thank you snake, for putting me back on the path to the deep darkness which I’ve traveled for so long… I’d almost forgotten how the jagged rocks felt as they pierce the soles of my feet, and how the cold wind burns my face hot. Thank you snake for reminding me that I don’t like this place and time, that I have nobody, that I am not really supposed to be here. Thank you snake for opening my eyes to see beyond your spitting in my face, to see the faces of those that have passed on who I miss so very much.
FUCK YOU SNAKE you horrible awful bastard – HOW DARE YOU!?
Tears and bitter pain are what I have in my belly now – you horrible serpent
3 comments
Sorry to hear about this person you had to deal with, but it seems you’ve said ‘goodbye’ and removed him from your life which is the wise thing to do.
You’re right about ‘snake people’ they are nothing but poison in one’s life and they strike you when you are at your weakest. I’ve known a few such vermin in my life and it was like a weight lifting off my chest to have kicked them to the curb.
It is nice you have one reliable friend, it’d be good to have a few of them just in case anyone turns on you. At the same time we should be able to work out our problems with people who are true friends, since in most cases they’re misunderstandings.
I have a handful of very good friends that I can rely on-they’re basically like family at this point (in a good way). Ofc it’s not always perfect but our relationships are fairly solid/stable. I would like to add a few more trustworthy people but how does one go from zero (stranger) to making new best friends?
It’s almost a futile effort when you become an adult-once you’re out of the education system it’s hard to find decent people to turn into great friends. Also most people are extremely leery of forming new relationships unless it is for utilitarian reasons-so those contacts also tend to be shallow.
Last point-I know this ‘snake’ seemed to have some influence over you, but I’d suggest seeing it a different way. If they have no power over you (boss/guardian, etc) or could affect your life in any direct way (customer/family member), then you shouldn’t pay them any attention.
If they cannot stop you from enjoying life (apart from being mean/manipulative towards you) then they don’t really have any power over you and are thus irrelevant. If they do have some power over you, best to leave the situation or avoid them or deal with them through superiors (say at work), or get a lawyer if needed to stop them from interacting with you.
@Katki- lol totally relate to your post. Yes, there are many snakes out there. And they seek us out- those who are vulnerable and easily taken advantage of. We are targets for these kind of people. I see it happen to certain people over and over and over again. And it’s not so easy to sniff them out. They tend to be more of the insidious type- the ones that smiles to your face and stabs you in your back. The ones that get you to trust them, then turn all the information you’ve told them against you.
Snakes in the grass.
i’m so so sorry 🙁
<3
hoping you'r okay
or at least a bit better now
xoxoxo