General To “lostallhope001” by FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/24/2017 written by FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/24/2017 Pleeease read what I wrote you on “Air” Praying for you <3 25 comments 0 Email Related posts I’m so tired 9/22/2021 I know it’s my fault 9/22/2021 tired 9/21/2021 Remote Viewing… 9/21/2021 Feels like a watershed moment 9/21/2021 kill me 9/21/2021 update 9/20/2021 i’m done 9/20/2021 Bullshit 9/20/2021 What if I’m not the problem? 9/19/2021 25 comments MissYouLoveYou 11/24/2017 - 8:57 pm Have you heard from her? :/ <3 Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/25/2017 - 6:23 am not until NOV 25, 2017 @ 05:44:20 🙂 God, I’m so relieved <3 Thank you for asking about her too <3 Log in to Reply lostallhope001 11/25/2017 - 5:44 am Thank you for the sweet replies, I am sorry I am a girl of not many words, I wish I was Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/25/2017 - 5:51 am I swear I was thinking about you right now <3 <3 <3 Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/25/2017 - 5:54 am @ lostallhope001 love you don’t need to say anyyyything just please read what I wrote you… It’s enough for me that you read it… I was hoping you had read it before attempting I was too late 🙁 Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/25/2017 - 7:06 am @ lostallhope001 believe me I don’t want to bother you or to put any extra pressure than what you’r already dealing with if you feel okay to speak about this… can you tell me what happened yesterday… ? Log in to Reply lostallhope001 11/25/2017 - 8:46 am Well actually nothing happened, I couldn’t get the H cooked properly I feel like such a loser Log in to Reply iceberg 11/25/2017 - 8:51 am Not at all. You’re just testing the dimensions of your cage, which is normal for every trapped beast. I hope you find freedom in more life-affirming ways. Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/25/2017 - 9:05 am I know u’ll probably hate me for saying this but Thank God … huh 😮 that’s one big sigh of relief, cause I wasn’t only worried about you going but also about the side-effects if things didn’t workout as you planned… I’ve been reading about it all morning… not nice 🙁 well, if not knowing how to cook H is a “loser” quality… I can assure you, probably more than half of the world population are losers… so don’t worry, you’re not alone at this I’m a loser too in that sense 😀 Log in to Reply lostallhope001 11/25/2017 - 9:31 am Damn if only I was such a good and nice person as you Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/25/2017 - 9:44 am that right there is my main “point of conflict” with you you Are such a good & nice person you just don’t want to see it & even when you do you refuse to believe it… 🙁 it’s like you’re [literally] “dead-set” on hating yourself & I just can’t figure out why? 🙁 Log in to Reply MissYouLoveYou 11/25/2017 - 9:56 am @lostallhope001 ive read a bunch of your post the first day i saw sp, efter reading a bunch of stories on here(mainly seeking for a method) , i read yours. Your post persuaded me join. Not because i wanted to help you, but because yyou seemed to be in the same mind frame as me. I want to die, truely i do. I also have little to no confidence in myself to do anything. I have no drive. I just want death. So when i read you last few posts all i wanted to be able to do was talk to you. Log in to Reply lostallhope001 11/25/2017 - 9:57 am Believe me Farah, I am a very very very bad person Log in to Reply lostallhope001 11/25/2017 - 10:02 am @missyouloveyou why do you want to die so badly? I want death too.. When I wake up in the morning I am so fucking pissed that I have to go through another day like why didn’t I just die in my sleep WHY Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/25/2017 - 10:07 am can I ask you a question… in your opinion… what makes “a bad person”? how would “a bad person” be described? Log in to Reply lostallhope001 11/25/2017 - 10:13 am Somebody who doesn’t care for anybody but herself. Somebody who is not willing to do NOTHING for others Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/25/2017 - 10:18 am okay, just so as not to bore you with reading something you already read did you read my “essay” on your post? Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/25/2017 - 12:07 pm okay, never mind my essay it’s too long & too boring anyway In any case, my next line would still be the same… in Your description of “a bad person” does this person “willingly choose” not to care for anybody but themselves? do they “consciously decide” not to be willing to do anything for others? Log in to Reply MissYouLoveYou 11/25/2017 - 1:49 pm @farah, yes and no. Choosing to care about others only probably by impulse. Instinctively nataurally NOT caring or thinking about, in a conscience mind, to be caring for others. She simply does care because she cant, and if she does its by impulse. This was probably a derivative from the past, or disablement. Log in to Reply MissYouLoveYou 11/25/2017 - 1:50 pm Doesnt because she cant* Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/25/2017 - 2:41 pm then it’s not her fault that she doesn’t care because [as you said] she can’t… how can someone born with a nature incapable of something be called “a bad person” for it… ? I understand calling a person “bad” when they willingly, “100%”, choose to do more bad actions than good ones in every given opportunity… she’s not choosing not to mention that “caring” is only an emotion it’s not an “action” Log in to Reply MissYouLoveYou 11/25/2017 - 2:58 pm Caring is an emotion and action, “i care for someone when i give them something they need. I feel care when recieving and giving the emotion of empathy. With that said, in her mind shes a bad person, she only thinks about herself, no one else not you, not me. In todays society thats label as rude, unacceptable, and down right wrong. However thats society, and we owe no fucking obligation to what others think or expect! As it goes, “id rather die for what i believe than live life without meaning. ” Doesnt change someones mind not the slightest bit. Please excuse my language, and @lostallhope001 i dont mean to speak for you, tell me im wrong if i am. Log in to Reply FarahLajeenNourAlDeen 11/25/2017 - 3:15 pm okay I really appreciate your input but I disagree you care for someone SO you give them something they need [Emotion]—————–[Action] Giving is the action Caring or not caring is the emotion [or lack of] This is actually one of my main points to her Let’s imagine [Lack of Emotion]—————–[Action] you “don’t care” for someone YET you give them something they need [because you know, logically/derivative-ly that this is the right/moral/good/helpful thing to do & you have previously / instantly [at that moment] made a conscious decision again based on logic/derivation to be/act righteous[ly] / moral[ly] / good/well / helpful[ly] ] The “lack of emotion” does not make you a bad person most most specially if it’s Not Your Choice that you lack these emotions as long as you have control over your actions & your actions are 100% your choice then your action is what determines your status / description in this particular situation / event [in a more extreme case, if you also had no control over your actions, then you are not to be blamed if you act badly & you are not a bad person because it’s Not Your Choice] Log in to Reply MissYouLoveYou 11/25/2017 - 3:37 pm Ahhh i see what youre saying more clearly, giving being the adverse word the emotion. However “caring” for someone by definition can also explaing the action. But i do understand what you mean. Either she cares by choice or not. And if not its not her choice, its not her fault. Which i agree she may need to understand that she isnt a bad person(in my eyes) she is amazing, in her own way, in ways that some highly accepted people wouldnt even turn me away from. She has the drive of a tiger, when it comes to wanting to pass right now. She simply has great qualities as a human. @lostallhope001 Log in to Reply MissYouLoveYou 11/25/2017 - 10:49 am @lostallhope001 Why do i want to die so badly? Thats kinda difficult to answer but ill try. Well many reasons honestly, i cant live with who i am as a person. Im not of use to anyone or anything. I have addiction i cant break. I have disablements that hold me back from being that of a “normal” person. Ive lost everyone i cared for. I fucked up on just about everything. I lose interest in everything. I long for companionship but never recieve it. Practically just get broken down piece by piece every time i try. I have no confidence or drive anymore. All i do is sit and recieve information from my senses and respond with what i think is a well understanded statement. I have secrets, dark ones, that will never surface, force to ball up and drive me into insanity. My health is horrible so at times i can hardly breath, ive lost too much weight because i havent been eating. But above all of this, the one true reason simply is that, i dont belong here. Log in to Reply Leave a Comment Cancel ReplyYou must be logged in to post a comment.Subscribe to comments: Don't subscribe All Replies to my comments Notify me of followup comments via e-mail. You can also subscribe without commenting.