Probably the fact that I seem fundamentally overwhelmed with life in general. As in all the shit that goes on in the world and all the people who are brainwashed into thinking that’s it’s right.
The world is a miserly place and it seems the game the power brokers play is to keep as many people down as possible so they can gain a relative advantage, when the bigger picture just gets worse under this scenario, they pretend they dont know that.
I don’t even know how to pick just one. My inability to feel compassion? Whatever part of my brain thinks it’s a good idea to push everyone away? Really, I just hate myself in general.
I honesly it would probably be just be my knowledge memorizing, reading people and better understanding people who are sneaky manipulative and lying those who pretend to love you when they truly don’t when it’s only a person of interest now if I had that kind of knowledge I think I wouldn’t ask for much more all I have now is just scars and lessons if I just had knowledge I would be all set. knowledge is the only thing that I hate about myself mainly
i forgive so easily, and i fucking hate it. i do it so often. my “friends” are constantly hurting me emotionally, and they apologize. and i forgive them. i don’t know why i do it. i’ve gotten better at not forgiving so easily, but i still just open myself up to bad situations. if i stopped forgiving the negative people in my life, i’d probably be a much happier person.
I constantly try to find good in people, even when there’s not. I shape the reality into what I want it to be and I trust people more than needed, I show people I love, I care for them just so they can use it against me.
I’m shy, withdrawn, ugly, mentally ill, everything in general and when I get to talk with my best friend oh boy can I not stop talking to the point I get annoying.
I’m also a really boring person, and I try to force things, even when they are not meant to be and will not be.
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Probably the fact that I seem fundamentally overwhelmed with life in general. As in all the shit that goes on in the world and all the people who are brainwashed into thinking that’s it’s right.
The world is a miserly place and it seems the game the power brokers play is to keep as many people down as possible so they can gain a relative advantage, when the bigger picture just gets worse under this scenario, they pretend they dont know that.
I don’t even know how to pick just one. My inability to feel compassion? Whatever part of my brain thinks it’s a good idea to push everyone away? Really, I just hate myself in general.
Same here
My brain
I honesly it would probably be just be my knowledge memorizing, reading people and better understanding people who are sneaky manipulative and lying those who pretend to love you when they truly don’t when it’s only a person of interest now if I had that kind of knowledge I think I wouldn’t ask for much more all I have now is just scars and lessons if I just had knowledge I would be all set. knowledge is the only thing that I hate about myself mainly
Everything
i forgive so easily, and i fucking hate it. i do it so often. my “friends” are constantly hurting me emotionally, and they apologize. and i forgive them. i don’t know why i do it. i’ve gotten better at not forgiving so easily, but i still just open myself up to bad situations. if i stopped forgiving the negative people in my life, i’d probably be a much happier person.
I hate my lungs and their relentless need for more air, involuntarily even! My goodness just stop
I constantly try to find good in people, even when there’s not. I shape the reality into what I want it to be and I trust people more than needed, I show people I love, I care for them just so they can use it against me.
I’m shy, withdrawn, ugly, mentally ill, everything in general and when I get to talk with my best friend oh boy can I not stop talking to the point I get annoying.
I’m also a really boring person, and I try to force things, even when they are not meant to be and will not be.
I could continue on and on, but wont bother.
My voice. It’s truly a bewildering mystery how people are able to speak effortlessly and constantly think of things to say to keep conversation going.
I have nothing to say. Let me die in silence then.
My weakness as a person