I hate the fact that I fell so alone and lonely and its Xmas. Isn’t this the time we’re all supposed to be all friendly and good to each other. Then again my life has always been empty and dejected what would I know. Death sounds so friendly I might ignite the flame and let it all burn.
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That emptiness youre feeling will pass. Didnt it pass last year also once the charade ended and the retailers made their deposits? This is the time of year we are supposed to spend exorbitant amounts of money and endure often crippling amounts of stress as we pretend to be happy and care about one another. We are directed, by our television sets, to act in a way that matches what the carefully scripted commercials tell us we should be.
I don’t know, I guess I’m a bit of a naive idealist *****, but shouldn’t we be kind towards each other because it’s Tuesday? Or Friday? Or any day? Is kindness, love and good cheer only good one day of the year? If it is, then perhaps what we are doing this time of the year is all just a show – christmas will pass, and we can all return to the business of hate, division, selfishness, corruption, deception, and violence tomorrow, breathing a sigh of relief that “Its over for another year!” while at the same time, merchants ring up the profits.
I’m reminded of the Christmas truce of world War 1, when opposing soldiers declared a temporary truce on christmas eve to join together as humans, not enemies, and enjoy a few hours of peace and decency, before picking up their guns the following day to continue killing each other.
What an odd bunch of hairless apes we are, and what a wonderful life it would be if none of us had been born.
Your words speak more and counsel than I’ve learned in my entire bloody pathetic life. Regardless I wouldn’t mind the pretend friendliness right about now. The dejection I feel is so dire I would do literally anything to put a smile on my emotionless face ‘once’.