When I really need to let go or get something off my chest I think of writing but it’s too hard to vent. I’ve lost it to the point where I can’t focused on something if I’m worried about hanging myself. I thought of writing poems but there’s no way.
It’s so much fucking torture, I really want to kill myself but I’m too scared of hell and failing.
I hate this fucking life I don’t belong here I feel it because it just doesn’t feel right to be here. Even when I’m not depressed I still have suicidal thoughts wondering my mind. I never actually attempted suicide because I’m a ***** or ill tell someone before I do it. 
One of the rules here is one post per day but I don’t think that’s enough for some people. I’m going to post twice a day.
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Wanna talk about something that is killing you?
Lol sure why not.
I am the same way. Suicidal thoughts are automatic even in the best of times.
I have attempted, however, and failed many times. Believe me failure is not something I care to ever do again.. Doesn’t mean I won’t attempt again, just better prepared and failproof.
I don’t know if I can be of any help, but I’ll try as best I can.
I’m a **** I can’t do shit right.
I guess we are two peas in a pod. I bought a fridge magnet that reads “if at first you don’t succeed, redefine success”.. Maybe we are poster children for epic failure.. ‘this is Jim/Mary. They f***ed _____ up. Don’t be a Jim/Mary’.. my twisted humour in finding silver lining.. Sorry if that has a detrimental effect.