I never should have revealed my age.
Oh, and don’t answer I would like to just see 0 everyday.
The only hope I have is a dollar and a dream. No matter who tries to put me down, hate on me, disrespect me, doubt me in life. All i have to do is flip that dollar to a million and make my dreams come true and I’ll prove them damn wrong.
I’m a good person. Tell me a story of a 16 year old giving his allowance to a person in need standing in front of Walmart. Idgaf if that person does drugs it makes me feel better. That’s always not the case anyways.
I believe in you and me. We can get through this together.
Yesterday my case manager came to my house and he left me thinking. These aren’t his exact words but this is what he said.
“You are not in school, there is no reason, no damn excuse your mom should have to come home to a dirty house! You should walk your dog everyday! You should walk up the street to the library every day! All you do is sit the house and do nothing!”
Any of it didn’t offend me(in a way)because I respect him for letting me know what I’m doing wrong. He doesn’t mean it to hurt my feelings although it came out angry. But my excuse is I’m too depressed to do anything. It hurts my feelings because I’m not trying to learn things at 16 that I should and he’s pointing it out.
His point is that when I try do something there’s always an excuse. For an example walking the dog. My excuse is its too cold, my feet hurt, my back hurt, I’m too depressed, there’s no point in doing it. I understand what I’m lagging in doing, Im just too scared to fight through.
At the end if the day I know that if I want to succeed in life its going to hurt until I achieve it. That billion-dollar business, all those real estate properties, that luxury car, that mansion, wife, kids, money, happiness. I know, that it takes blood, sweat, and tears. And I can’t get it staying in the comfort zone or stuck in a some depressive jail or something. I need to beat that b**tch inside. I want to be stronger.
But it’s so so so hard. I feel like I can’t do it. I feel like I’m not meant for it. That’s why I’m on this website. People all over the internet say things they wouldn’t say to my face.
I don’t even love myself. But I want to change. No! I need to change.
Tell me your story, tell me what you would want to wish for, tell me what would it be like if you were happy and successful at the age you are now or just tell me if you are happy with your life and why.
At the age of 16 and a half I would be in a public high school with Straight A’s, friends, and a girlfriend.
I would have a job and be saving up for college or future Investments,
I would be very intelligent, reading books all the time and making goals for myself to make myself better,
I will be more patient with people that disagree with me, I would just prove them wrong,
I will be eating healthy and exercising everyday, I wouldn’t be overwieght
People will have more respect for me and I would have more respect for myself.
I would have my driver’s license,
I would get along with my mom.
So whenever I do anything, no one appreciates it. I mean everything online, at school, at home.
I lost a lot of motivation. I don’t have s**t, it’s too hard to do simple things, some people basically tell me it’s impossible to get where I want to be. Are they just jealous of my ambition at a young age?!?!
My ultimate dream is to own a multi-billion dollar company, and have real estate investment properties all over the country one day. I want the cars, mansions, a wife, gold, diamonds and respect. F**k what everyone else does or say to me. I’m in control. ALL YOU NEED IN LIFE IS HEALTH, WEALTH, LOVE AND, HAPPINESS.
Once again I don’t have shit, I want to get a job but nobody is hiring and if they are, I’m still too lazy to do the application. I’m a very sensitive person and I take things personal and I can’t help it!
Suicide is always the back up plan.
Everything about me is negative I never talk about positivity, but there’s nothing positive in my life so what should I do?
I want to be financially and mentally and also physically successful buy age 30. I don’t want to be like everyone else. I want to be the special person I want to be the person inside me. I want a wife and kids too.
By age 30 I want to be worry free about everything everyone else thinks about a specially money. I don’t want to be down and depressed all my life. I’m lucky because I’m only 16 now so I know I have time, time to invest in myself.
My mom tells me “jahmar your black and the only way to be successful is to to go college” sometimes I look at her crazy but she doesn’t understand. College is the wrong way to go if your looking tords being financially successful. Unless I wanted to be a doctor or something but no. I want to be debt free and financial free and I know exactly how to get there without going to college.
The point here is that most people are stressed out because of bills and stuff, some of those people do have a degree. Some people can’t take it so they take there lives because they can’t afford living and stuff. But I’m different.
To all those people,”money isn’t everything” money helps you live, eat, buy, sell etc… You need money for everything. My mom has just enough to afford $1,000 rent in a single family house and she’s worrying alot about money. She has 5 kids to feed.
I don’t want to suffer like my mom and dad.
Tell me in your opinion.
I think there’s nothing wrong with it in my situation. Some reasons I just can explain but I feel hopeless and misunderstood all the time. People don’t like me and I don’t have a clue why but that’s just a sign for me that I should’ve never been born. My mom hates me and I hate myself.
And besides, I don’t have kids, a job, a girlfriend so what is my purpose? Just to be miserable and suicidal?
I wish to die everyday and people tell me what they or other people been through, why to make seem like I’m going through nothing?