I tell myself “I’m going to kill myself” and never do it. I tell myself just to get a sense of relief sometimes. 
I’m under pressure and no one likes to her me explain the drama I have at home. I have bad anxiety I am very sensitive I don’t want to keep going until I’m 18.
Something has to change I keep contemplating hanging myself and I never do it. I don’t have that many options, I don’t have pills or a gun or the balls to do anything. I don’t have any hope but I have lots of dreams. I want to make the world a better place.
I know this won’t sound right but if I kill myself of course it’s mostly going to be my mom’s fought(I hate that *****). The other reasons are because I’m lazy, lonely, depressed etc… hope I make up my mind very soon.
Im going to hang myself between a door and door frame with the bathroom closet door but I want to wait until the house is empty. I hope this is going to be the last year of my life.
Call me crazy but I think I need to go to the psychiatric hospital again. I want to go because I get a break from my real life or other words my family. Maybe I’ll try tommorow.
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It’s not as easy as it seems. Don’t do it.
I keep posting because I have no life and there’s something in me that needs to be explained. I’m scared but I can’t do this for too long while everyone else is enjoying life. My mom comes home fussing and I just can’t.
Im having those thoughts again but i want to take action on them but i don’t have the guts too. I want to start self harming again but idk.
Im not worth it
You are worth it.
As for self harming, I can relate. I started when I was 15. It made me feel “real”, not invisible. The last time I did it was June. Thirty-eight years after the first time. If you can resist the urge good.