I’m not suicidal. But I am.
I have no desire to end my own life immediately. But I know I will be ending my life before I turn 20 I’m only 16 now. Maybe I’ll be able to disappear off the face of the earth peacefully without anyone noticing.
I know I need to start destroying myself soon so that I don’t make it to 20 and I seem to have started by pushing off positivity.
I’m so confused how I can be so excited to start a new chapter in my life but feel the need to begin self-destruction.
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don’t do it
I can relate to this a lot. I want to be excited about graduating high school and entering my twenties but depression and my seemingly bleak future weigh me down.
Don’t you want to be a nurse?