I feel like I haven’t been on SP for a long time now and it’s officially the new year “new year new me” right?, I don’t think it’s gonna be a new me I think I’m gonna keep doing the same old shit and feel the same old shit self I did last year. It is easier said then done to start new to have a fresh start at life when it feels like the same shit hole it did last year. There would be nothing better than to start new to act like I’m not sad more than I am happy and I could cry about one thing and then turn into everything to the point where it hurts. I wish it was easier said than done but it isn’t, if it was wouldn’t everyone have some kind of happiness in there life?
someone had said to me “lately I been seeing you been sad a lot” and all I could think was only if you could imagine, only if you knew that all I want to do is break down, cry, go home and just be alone but I have to get through my day with a smile on my face and some days it works and others I just think what an amazing actor I am.
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honestly, same.
but lately i can’t help but think how happiness or like being happy (not quite sure how to put it) is kind of overrated. like all I’m hearing is be happy, do what ever it takes to be happy and other sh*t like that. and i just want to throw up when i hear that. in one hand i do understand, when you feel good, when you feel happy it does feel nice… but also come on, happiness is not the only emotion. it seems to me that other emotions are invalid or baaad and a huge no. its not all sparkles and unicorns, sometimes you feel like sh*t, you feel unhappy, sad, angry, annoyed and so much more… and its completely ok…
it tends to be so tiring with all that fake happy…
I know what you mean and when I feel that I think I’m happy it just goes away like it was never there. And it’s not always sparkles and unicorns when you know what it feels like to be happy then it just goes away
That is so tru people jus focus on happiness and the other emotions r irrelevant like no one really says it’s ok to cry to
Feel this way sometimes. Everyone seems so happy but really aren’t